Saturday, February 25, 2006
hey peeps, going to the airport liao. Sobz.. cant take A levels results.. cant see everybody but still i get to go to taiwan!!!hahah... good luck to me, n everybody! tata lor, bao zhong!
Its just me and you <3 .
9:42 AM
Sunday, February 19, 2006
There was once when a friend told me how alone he felt. Like how you cant find a person to share you joys and sorrow. Well, you can have alot of friends or buddies, but there are times when u look at them, n u dun feel like fan-ing them. There's this phrase tt i've been thinking of for sometime now. "There's so much sorrow in me, but it doesnt seemed right for me to burden anyone with it".
I mean, sometimes you jus come to the realisation that, there isn't that special person in your life yet, who you want to share everything with. I don't mean just the happiness or the laughter, but instead more of the sorrow and pain that you want the person to get rid of from u. I mean, I don't think it's like a very sad thing to realise that such a person is lacking in ur life. Because simply put, it's reality. Still, I hope and pray, it'll come in due time.
Sometimes I thought back of something I told my friend. "What else can you still do, now that you've progressed past a certain stage of your relationship?" I mean..crude as it sounds, how much further can it advance? I regret how immature i was in my thinking then. The act of getting tgt, don't get me all wrong i don't mean physically, i mean becoming a couple, doesn't necessarily means the end of all things. I was rathering thinking of it in terms of destination instead of as a process. Now, I won't say how I suddenly got that revelation, because it sounds v stupid, but still, i'm glad i did.
Its just me and you <3 .
6:45 PM
Sunday, February 12, 2006
SOUND OF MUSIC, how many of you have heard of that film? I never did, until I bought the dvd. Haha. Before I tell you all the struggles I have to endure before I got the dvd, let me fill you in with some info abt this film.
First of all, it's a 50s Holloywood musical film. One of the very first musical films, and is said to be THE musical film all these years. Most celebrated and remembered is the most repeated comment of all. It's better than Moulin Rouge, because of its simplicity and sweetness. It's an adaptation of a real story of an Austrian family, the Von Trapps, who fled from Hitler and sang their way to America. The film mainly focused on the part in Austria, before the war.
The main lead of the show is Julie Andrews, the one who acted as Queen Clarisse in Princess Diaries II. No matter how cheesy or how chick flick that movie was, she is BRILLIANT. I may sound very immature fussing over her, but truth be told, she taught me alot of stuff, which I'll tell u later. As I've blogged in previous entries, she was a marvellous singer who can soared through 4 octaves, which she sorta did in SOUND OF MUSIC. But now, she's returned to 5 notes. V sad, I'm reminded of that everything she sings that High note.
Anyway, the music in this film is lovely. Many well-known songs are written for this story, but ithey were composed mainly for the Broadway version before the film. Songs like Edlweiss, Sound of Music, Do-Re-Mi, are made famous by the film. I always thought they were traditional folklores, never have I imagined a film would have such an impact. I love "My Favorite Things" and "Sound of Music", very uplifting and soothing.
Sometimes, I wonder if I'm aging too quickly or what. My mother was saying why are you watching this kinda film, or this film bleah is not v well remembered. Then I'll be thinking, am I or am I not 臭老ing? I mean, a normal teen, won't like a classic like SOUND OF MUSIC, or obsess over Julie Andrews. They would probably like Britney Spears or Jolin or JJ. Well, I do like JJ, but I also like JA. Do you get the idea? Well, it's frightening and dampening to realise something like that. But now, I'm trying to persuade just to like something that I truly like, and just heck whatever others think.
In the past, I hate to persuade people. Partly, because I never could. And partly, because I don't like to influence others' thinking. But, this time, I really want to try because SOUND OF MUSIC is a timeless piece of art. It's about family, about love. The love of religion, the love of family, the love between a man and a woman and the love of your country. There are lovely moments, anecdoted with songs, like "My Fav Things". The lyrics are simple but meaningful. The tune is catchy, yet neither is it traditional or modern. It's just typical 50s.
It's the most beautiful musical I've seen, really. The plot is not complex at all, it's very family-friendly. Like what they said, it's for all ages and especially good to watch after a bad day at work or in school. It just makes you feel better. Partly maybe it's because of Julie Andrews, then it's because of the songs and the family. The main compelling reason I bought this dvd was because of Julie Andrews, because I want to hear her sing again. Then, I realise it's more than her. It's abt the entire crew, the director. It's moments like this when I want to be part of it. And then doubt myself if ever I have anything to contribute. Then start to worry abt my future.
But putting that aside, I'm feeling so much better these few days. Maybe like what esther said, it's good to pamper yourself one time or another. It's really good to feel good. Or maybe it's because I watched something great. Or because I learnt something from Julie Andrews.. to be kinder to everybody and in turn you'll be kinder to yourself. I mean, I've always been very critical or cynical abt everybody. Altho I still do derive some joy from poking fun at others, being nice suddenly made me felt even happier. Haha. More relaxed, because I don't expect so much from others and esp from myself. It's good to feel free. It seems awfully simple, doesn't it. And it makes me wonder, why did it take me so long to realise that?
Oh ya, I forgot to tell you the tormenting troubles I went through before I got the dvd. Actually I saw that release online, so I was searching for it everywhere. But it's kinda weird to tell others I'm searching for a 40 year old english movie, so I was looking everywhr myself. I don't want to trouble anyone anyway. Some pleasures should be felt and enjoyed alone. So I went to chinatown yesterday morning, and walked from pearl centre to people's park. And found nothing. I saw alot of CDs, VCDS, even the dvd version of SOUND OF MUSIC, not that's w/o the commentaries, still selling at 9.90. But it's all those extra parts that made it a worthy buy, altho the show itself is also worthy. I saw it once at bugis, selling it at $44.90, but I thought it was terribly ex, so I didnt buy it.
Then I met Esther at tampines mall to pei her shopping for her jacket. There, at MJ, I found it. I subsequently found it at LaserFair at Century Square and finally bought it at $44.90. The reason it's so ex is because it's directly imported from USA and it's a collectible series, I think. But it's worth it. Okay, this may sound abit desperate, but if anyone wants to borrow it, pls do ask. I'm be delighted to lend it. Now.. my next VCD to buy is Mary Poppins, another Oscar-winning show of JA. Haha.
Its just me and you <3 .
10:11 PM
Thursday, February 09, 2006
I guess I was blabbering to myself in the last last entry so I took that out and decide to write again. Well, now, the obsession has tapered abit, alot. It's not snuffed out or what, but I'm more rational now. At least I hope I don't blabble anymore.
I bought the Princess diaries II DVD and it's wow. One heck of an eye-opener. There's the royal bloopers, funny scenes and all sorts of stuff. Haha, esther you should really watch this version. It's ex, but worth e price. Anyway, I was suddenly v v fascinated by Dame Julie Andrews. She's the one who acted as Queen Clarisse Renaldi, and haha Mary Poppins long long time ago. To my surprise, she's 70! And omg, doesn't she look young, extremely young. And she has a bunch of grandchildren, I do mean a bunch.
Actually, her story is even more interesting that the character Queen Clarisse. She started out as a young starlet from Broadway and she was a gifted child, I suppose. She could sing 4 octaves, although I don't really understand what that encompasses, but surely it's something v v powerful. 4 octaves? My hands cant even reach that range on the piano. Something about her having a fully developed larnyx. I heard the songs she sang in those musicals, v v powerful, but still v v oldies. haha. I'm not accustomed to it.
The story goes like this. In 1997, i believe, she had an operation, to remove non-cancerous nodes near her vocal cord, and that unfortunate accident spoil her throat. Her voice is damaged. I mean, for heaven's sake, why did such a terrible thing happen? It took her awhile to recover, but she never sang in public for 8 years ever since. Until in princess diaries II, when she half sang half said this song. It's only a 5-notes song. The first time I watched the movie, I was like wt... what is this crappy song?! Now that I knew how much she had to go through, to finally summon e courage to sing again, I luv this song. It's not the lyrics or the tune, or the lines that were said during it. It was the story behind it, the person behind it and the past.
I cried the first time I heard it again, after knowing its story. She started as a singer, but ended up unable to sing again. Thankfully, her speaking voice remains and her dictation was as perfect as ever. Oh, did I mention she's a dame? Haha, it's an equivalent to the knight in UK. She's a dame, in reality, omg. She may be old, (well she doesn't look v old), but she's full of grace and poise n whatever not. Haha, she's a wonderful lady. Sad wonderful lady. Well, joseph is nice too, hector elizondo who acted as him is a good actor as well, but he really shouldnt smile too much.
Haha, I love the DVD. There's this commentary between Gary Marshall, the director and Julie Andrews throughout the entire movie. It's like watching it with them. They will pick up this line and comment how it's a typical Gary Marshall line, or how they love this scene. And Julie Andrews made this v conscious effort to point out all the flowers in the scene because she's the cumblesome troublemaker who keeps pestering Gary to get fresh flowers for each scene. And many of which she had a hand in arranging. There's many interesting things pointed out throughout the movie, and it's surprising how much thought is given to each scene. Suddenly, it just seems more than a mere movie. It's art and fun. Suddenly, remembering lines from your fav movies doesnt seem stupid anymore. Haha. Because they're their fav lines as well.
"Short" "Hushed tones" "I'd gladly take a bullet for you" "other ppl lose it. We're supposed to find it" "Nepotism remains in the arts, not in the plumbing"
Haha, and I've got to know some secrets in the movies, like alot of Gary's, Julie's and Anne's family acted in the movie haha. And I saw the deleted scenes and that missing scene that's in the trailer but not in the movie. N ya.. that scene Queen Clarisse slid down? It's truly her.
Its just me and you <3 .
1:35 AM
Tuesday, February 07, 2006
Haha... i think i sounded rather fanatic in my last entry. Nvm me, that's me when I'm bonkers. Sigh. Today is a really.. erh.. pleasant day. Haha, i always pick up these weird languages from the shows i luv. Anyway, as I was saying, I meet this wonderful ah pei on the bus. Haha.
Actually, you know, the bus i always takes back home passes geylang at night. And today it happens that I couldn't get a seat? The first time it happened. It was darn packed. Anyway, there's this aunty beside me, who's v v figety. Apparently, she's trying to shun away from this "bad" ah pei, who i suspect is harrassing her, or she's probably just thinking too much. The bus was darn crowded, like I said, and he's an old man. Of cos, he will sway about abit.
Anyway, the nice ah pei i was referring to wasn't this ah pei. He was sitting at the second last row at the back of the bus, and there's a seat beside him, so i just sat that reading my book. He looked kinda rundown, you know. Slightly sneaky sneaky, looks like some ji ko pei. So i was keeping a distance from him. Then the bus started getting v cold. So i was like erh... got my jacket out and was covering myself. Then the ah pei went to tiao the aircon away from me. So kind of him. It's not expected of him, but he was v kind to do that.
Haha. I don't know izzit because I was trapping him inside, or he's getting off after my stop or what, but he didnt leave before me, I'm sure of tt. When I got off the bus, i was like thinking whether to thank him or not, but that's kinda weird. But i did drop a little smile when he tiao e aircon. i was touched by the gesture. But maybe he's just feeling alittle bit cold himself too. But i mean, I did take an elaborate effort to get my jacket out. Haha.
What rubbish am i sprouting? But i notice either he went off at the same stop as me, or he changed positions after I left. Maybe he tiao that aircon until it's blowing at him? Darn, I was so afraid he would be this bad ji ko pei that will follow me home. Haha, so while I was traumatising abt a potential stalker, I meet these two very wonderful n cute indian/malay girls. I often see them in the lift. They live on the second floor of my block and I always see them on A bike. Today, suddenly they started saying bye and goodnight to me when they left the lift. Haha. Frankly, I'm not a child person. Ar.. I.. am a wreck around kids. I don't know how to react around them, so I try to shy away from them. But, haha suddenly I'm this children charm, funny tots huh. Haha. It's such a wonderful day.
Its just me and you <3 .
9:53 PM
Friday, February 03, 2006
我得承认，我真的。。。患上恋老症！看很多很多的戏，我注意的是比较年长的演员，毕竟多年累积的经验不是盖的！他们身上散发的气质是独特，难求得。像是 Julie Andrews 的高贵，杨紫琼的硬朗，梁朝伟的忧郁，刘德华的闪亮，袁永仪的男人婆，恬妞的泼辣，汪明荃的能干。
不怎么喜欢看没水准的 acting, 因为很浪费时间。看了之后，不但浪费时间，又浪费气力在骂演员，值得吗？通常年纪轻的演员不怎么会演，因为经历太少，没太多的大风大浪，所以不能把角色诠释好。好好的一出戏要是败在这里，很冤枉！可是这也是一种因果循环，年轻的演员不磨练，将来又怎么会有资深的好演员呢？好矛盾哦。所以应该乘现在，看完好的老演员演的戏，将来再看年轻的演员(到时已经老了) 的戏不就刚刚好？哈哈哈，都打好了如意算盘。
好的演员当然要有好的 casting director 去发掘他们的气质潜能，然后再挖掘他们不谓人知的一面，来开阔戏路。很多人说人总是带着很多层面具来面对这个社会，所以人是虚伪的。可是换个角度来讲，这些面具是必需的。对于不同的事务情况，得采用不同的应对方式，所以就产生了这么多的面具。
一个人得拥有这么多层的面具其实是可以理解的。比如，一个三岁的小孩因为好奇，碰了滚烫的沸水烫伤了手，之后他就不再敢碰了。同样的，人在长大的过程中，一定会碰很多很多的钉子，自然也会像那小孩一样，学会如何去避免受到伤害。那就是人类本能的自卫。难道我们就责怪那小孩，就因为他在防范别人或事物伤害到他吗？
Its just me and you <3 .
11:13 PM
好久好久没被感动过了喔。
不对。应该说，好渴望再次被感动哦。
其实我每次看一部戏，就是想找个机会让自己再一次地被感动。有时，很凑巧的就真的给我遇上了。但很多时候，只是闷闷得等着另一次的感动。能令人感动的戏，其实不需要太华丽，激情，或者是震撼。能令人感动，动情的其实很简单。只要让人能感同身受，够真实就足够了。
很多时候，有的人批评这出戏不怎么了得，别人却满口称赞。当时我就很纳闷，为什么会这样？现在我才终于明白，原来每个人到了不同的年龄，经历过不同的遭遇之后，对一出戏的感觉是不一样的。就好像去年我看了出戏，过了一年再看同一出戏，感觉会随着我经历过的事而有所不同。
好比长期处在热闹之中的人，是不会明白寂寞吸引人的地方。在他印象之中，寂寞永远是可怕的，可是他明白寂寞也是能让人感到安逸，平静的吗？同样的寂寞的人也可能不明白，热闹有什么好的，换来的最终不就是令人冷到心底的无尽寂寞吗？
其实，寂寞是无罪的。书上有这么写到，我也是这么认为的。渴望寂寞，向往寂寞是无罪的。那是一种选择，也是一种待人处事的方法。也许你会在想，有人会渴望寂寞吗？寂寞是必要的，也是生活之中不可或缺的。没有寂寞为催促剂， 又怎么会有那么多人追求爱情，亲情，友情?
寂寞也是个很好的客栈，让疲惫的旅人休息，让失落的恋人叹息。长长的路上，当你少了个伴侣的时候，难道寂寞就曾舍弃过你吗？其实说起来，寂寞重来没有遗弃过你。就当连你都遗弃自己的时候，它不是还是留在你身边吗？所以你不曾孤单过，因为寂寞一直守在你身边。
同样的道理也可以延伸到对与错。对和错之间其实只有一丝很薄很薄的分界线。处在这分界线上的地带是灰色的， 是模糊的。游走在这一带的人也同样是灰色的。他们是痛苦，矛盾，压抑和郁闷的。游走在对错之间不是他们的选择，也不会有人自愿选择这一条路。因为那路不好走，又没什么风景可言，就不过是那灰灰的天，阴阴的雨罢。他们其实够可怜的，真的不应该再怪他们。毕竟有谁不想逃离那无间的折磨，无限延伸的寂寞。
Its just me and you <3 .
11:10 PM