Monday, October 31, 2005
一个不会在镜头面前摆pose的演员. 一个不会演感情戏的演员. 不会剧本说笑就笑, 说哭就哭. 一个还会边吃饭边刮奖票的演员. 一个不愿拍让人起鸡皮疙瘩的假戏, 只愿意做回自己的演员. 是演员吗?
是. 真正的演员. 不虚假, 不作做. 正实就是美. 有人说演员要常识各种角色. 对. 不过也要有自己的味道, 这才是成功的演员. 这才是演戏. 假戏真做. 假的东西又怎能代替真的?
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8:42 PM
8:42 PM
Sunday, October 23, 2005
nothing much to say... pretty much just that season 8 of charmed is so errrkk.... unsatisfactory! And sux! Why e *toot* did they change the plot until like tt@!!!!! Ar... ganna *ai....wun sae anymore else spoilers..... sad!!!! Maybe i will still give it a chance..
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1:21 PM
1:21 PM
Friday, October 21, 2005
有人说过猪是最聪明的动物. 因为明知道将来也是会死, 所以就干干脆脆吃个够, 做个饱鬼.
那人不就是最笨的咯? 明知怎么干, 最后还是免不了一死, 还做牛做马干吗?
突然想起一个笑话...
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天帝给人、牛、马、鸡和黄狗分寿命。
天帝对人说：“给你廿年寿命。”
人问：“做啥行当？”
“吃和玩”
又问：“吃啥？”
“吃菜、饭。”
天帝对牛和马说：“分(亻奈)各三十年寿命。”
牛和马问：“做啥行当？”
“帮人耕田做脚力。”
又问：“吃啥？”
“没菜饭了，就吃草吧。”
牛和马想：又出气力又吃草，太长命了，都送廿年寿命给了人。
天帝王鸡说：“给侬十五年寿命。”
鸡问：“做啥行当？”
“每日天亮，给人报晓。”
又问：“吃啥。”
“饭菜和草都没了，侬吃糠吧。”
鸡想：又是早起又吃糠，太长命了，也送十年给人。
天帝对狗说：“给侬十五年寿命，行当是帮人管门。”
狗问：“吃啥？”
“随人便。”
狗听错了，以为吃人便，又臭又腻，还要管门，太辛苦了，又送十年给人。
这样，人的寿命三加四加，加到了八十岁，一到廿年是天帝给的，专门吃和玩。廿年到六十年是牛马送的，象牛马一样做活，六十到七十年是鸡送的，所以夜里厢困不熟，早早起来，叫儿孙们起床，七十到八十是狗送的，只好象狗一样坐在墙边晒晒太阳，管管门了。
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所以就属人类最蠢, 活这样久干吗? 想想人老了也真可怜, 就只能沦落到看家的地步吗? 所以虽然说享享清福不错, 可是有享受过多, 过于福胜也不好?
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6:40 PM
6:40 PM
Sunday, October 16, 2005
在夜深人静的时候, 你会在想什么呢?
是在想今天发生的事呢? 还是在想明天的事?
不去想又怎么样?
为什么有的人网上网下是截然不同的样子? 有的人上网就更感性,沮丧. 有的却更加孤僻. 叫孤僻吗? 难以捉摸吧.shrug...
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11:12 PM
11:12 PM
刚刚看完<<金枝玉叶2>>, 想把那微妙的感觉捉住.
好棒的一部戏. 故事蛮复杂的, 不知道有没有人也看了? 是由已故巨星张国荣, 永远的梅姐梅艳芳, 还有袁永仪饰演的. 它不单讲述男女之间的关系, 也搀杂了同性恋的感情. 以下纯属个人的胡说八道，希望不会引来＂有关当局＂投诉．大家如果对同性恋有极度的反感，也请回避吧．
话说梅姐在一次偶然的化装晚会, 跟张国荣饰演的作曲家ＡｈＳａｍ发生了关系．一次美丽的误会，使双方陷入尴尬的局面．当然，为了各自的原因，他们也达成也协议，当作什么也没发生过．又在一次偶然的情况下，梅姐巧识了那时正崛起的新歌手ＡｈＷｉｎｇ．恰巧，梅姐又是ＡｈＷｉｎｇ一直以来的偶像，所以她们俩是一见如故，相逢狠晚的那种朋友．可是当时，梅姐以为ＡｈＷｉｎｇ是个男的，因为ＡｈＷｉｎｇ一直都是以男性装扮在圈子里闯的．
说来也是，其实袁永仪装男的还真是不赖，可是跟梅姐比就逊色多了．梅姐的男性装扮还真会把一些男生比下去，因为，怎么说呢，她是天生就散发一股魅力．哈哈，对不起了，恕我直言，她的女扮男扮，比她女性装扮好看多了．不过，她是属于旷野性的女生吧，莫文尉那性的．
怎么叉开话题了？话说，梅姐是个到处飘荡的人，乘着游艇旅行．这是她十年前在她颠峰时期退出娱乐圈后，第一次重回香港．回到香港之后，她就遇上一个好似同性恋的家伙，ＡｈＷｉｎｇ．当时，ＡｈＳａｍ因为外界在传他得靠ＡｈＷｉｎｇ过活，他是个同性恋，所以很烦．ＡｈＷｉｎｇ为了他，就希望梅姐做她的假女友，来平息绯闻．后来，竟然戏假成真！
话说在前，在梅姐看来，ＡｈＷｉｎｇ只不过是个有同性恋倾向的男人，喜欢＂他＂也没错．不过，ＡｈＷｉｎｇ是后来渐渐喜欢梅姐，事情也从此复杂起来．真是个真正的三角关系．接着，梅姐得跟ＡｈＷｉｎｇ排个接吻戏，ＡｈＳａｍ听了，就更焦急．因为在这之前，他无意间发现ＡｈＷｉｎｇ喜欢梅姐．所以在开拍之前，他告诉梅姐一个天大的秘密：ＡｈＷｉｎｇ不是他男朋友，而是他女朋友．
被搞乱了嘛？的确是有点乱，倒像伦理大悲剧的＜＜雷雨＞＞．
梅姐一时之间被搞乱了分寸, NG 了几十此. 后来她跟ＡｈＷｉｎｇ私下说了些话, 把剧本篡改了一大半部分,假戏真作的拍了个吻戏. 也不知道是 censorship board 又在搞破坏,还是什么的, 总之最精彩画面被切掉!慢痛心疾首呀! 总之, 梅姐是不管三七二十一的乱爱一通. 男女都可以, 通杀! (我讲的是戏里的梅姐哦!别搞混了!我也不知道她真正的性趋向, 而且亡者以矣)
ＡｈＳａｍ在场是大叫喊CUT!!!! 毕竟谁能看着自己的女朋友跟另个女人kiss, 超恶! 而且他还事前跟梅姐讲过ＡｈＷｉｎｇ是女的, 还吻的下?!!! 后来更离谱,梅姐来找ＡｈＷｉｎｇ说是她们还有一场没演完的戏, 接着就上演一场床戏. 当然, 床戏就没演出来. 还好, 不然我也看不下去了!
不过, 他们也真大胆, 敢挑战这种故事. 他们指的是整个crew. 新加坡敢播, 更是意想不到. 再想想张国荣生前同性恋绯闻是傳的沸沸洋洋的, 演这出戏是再好不过. 梅姐易男易女, 演这部片也是绝配. 袁永仪也就不用说了, 中性打扮是难不倒她的. 后来如何? 当然是所谓的邪不胜正, 该男的就男, 该女的就女. 说到底, 男配女, 才是天下/社会所能容的嘛. 该飘流的也就因此远走他乡了...
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12:54 AM
12:54 AM
Friday, October 14, 2005
Anyway, i got a very strange notion on the way home. I don't like bringing flowers or roses home. Cos my mother will nag nag nag, hu si luan xiang. Den have to answer her, so ma fan. Den somemore on e journey, people will look. So er xin. I don't have to attract attention, much less unwanted one.
Den i got this idea, mabbe cos it makes me look girl girl. OK... i admit i'm tom-boyish. In the card, people say i'm independent and very firm on what i think. True. I treasure my independence. And detest girly, po po ma ma things. So the fact that flower represents feminity is something i cant really stand.
Maybe i just fear it will bring out a side of me, i will detest. Or even scared of. Like i dunno wad i will become if i get into a relationship. Like becoming as chan as meihui. Or as blur as wanlin. Or as girl girl as... eh... who leh? I also dunno. That's a frightening notion. Inviting and frightening at the same time. V scary.
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9:59 PM
9:59 PM
Today's the last day of J2 life. I was reading the comments given by the classmates on the autographs, and there is always this thing repeated in the cards: "Cheer up" or sama remarks. Eh... am i so pessimistic? Or is it my blog? Or is it this year only? Actually it's a combination of all three.
This year is after all, a very happening year. I learnt a lot, gain a lot, lose a lot. But still, like i was feeling today, it was a meaningful year. I sorta regret what i wrote on the bio remarks paper, aiya, maybe i sadden ms ong. Sorry. But anyway, back to the point, I will try to cheer up more.
Eh... like a friend was telling me.. actually quite a few. Sometimes it's my problem, that I cant open up to people. True. I don't always open up to people much. Especially after things that happen this year. A lot of the times, i learnt it's better not for others to know, than let them know. But the distrust will sorta expand and extend to almost everyone, i realise, to my dismay.
It's really not that problem of others, but sorely mine. But i was thinking, whether can that be considered my fault? Or is that a right for everyone? Everyone's birthright, freedom of expression and choice to express to who right?
Then, i was thinking. Sometimes, it's not as if you don't trust the person enough to tell some things to the person. Sometimes, the circumstances, the unspokeable things form barriers that you yourself cant overcome. Circumstances often change. But when you want to be tan ban, the timing is off. Tian Shi Di Li, is really very very important, que yi bu ke.
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9:50 PM
9:50 PM
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
Quite bored now... so decided to copy timo... write something abt every1 in class...
Priya: I don't think she will read anyway. Eh... same Maths S as me, haha secret correspondent with me. Always sms me ask things. Actually i think she's a v pleasant person, if she opens up more, she can be a very fanatic person. As in feng. Try digging up her funny shots... i got some photos. Look serious but can be very very comical. anyway we were talking abt e possible doctors in my class: priya is definitely one of them. At least i feel confident having her as my doctor. Or lawyer, hopefully, i wont need one. She got this smart, intellectual but non-intimidating airs around her. That's why she's v pleasant.
Huimin: She's a mad person! I can tell you straight, damn extreme at times. Very spontaneous. And very combustive (is there such a word?). Although she's v unpredictable, it's v relaxing to hang around her. No need to worry about retaining friendship. Cos if something's not supposed to be, i cant retain it anyway. Cos she's a mad person, how can u like tie her down? So no pressure to be her friend. Aiya... do u understand what i am trying to say? Or i shall convert to chinese. I don't even understand what i'm trying to say. 有的人觉得她不可抓摸, 所以很难相处. 可是有时,就是因为无法抓摸, 就别去抓摸, 做回自己. 没有任何的要求, 还是期望. 这样做朋友岂不是更自在?
Yuling: She's a very cute person! 最纯真, 善良的女孩子. 看到我们(PW MATES),会很热情的"HI!!". 有时,有点过度热情. 不过, 她从来不做作, 完全出至于心. 很少见的女孩. 不过, 跟她相处的时间其实是瞒短的, 因为她老是飞来飞去. 其实不是很了解她, 不过知道她是个非常非常有趣的人物. 现时社会有多少人向往宗教? 更何况, 她很认真的跟我说过, 她想过到NEPAL 研究佛学.不可思议! 我可是没有戴有色眼镜看人, 不过真的是跌破眼镜叻!可是她心地真的是那么的善良, 这也蛮适合她的嘛. I can imagine her becoming a human rights advocate. Imagine her, twenty years down the road, taking signboards that read "Respect Life!" 不要杀生!Something to that effect. Haha... all in all, a very unique person i have never met in my life until now. Hahaa....too bad she's always not around. And she always bring stuff back for us when she comes back. So sweet. Her hubby will be so xing fu!
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6:48 PM
6:48 PM
Just remarkable leh... i finish Harry potter from the 3rd book to the recent one, the half-blood prince, charmed books and da vinci code after prelims. A lot of catching up i have done. I realise if i buy a book, i can finish it. Da vinci is so thick... luckily, i finish it. Zi de piao jia.
Anyway damn sad for dumbledore... so sad.... so errr... but he has to die la.. if not e story cant develop further. Wad else can harry potter do? Stuck forever in Hogwarts... Da vinci is a v thrilling story. Twists and turns. But i suspect how much of it is true. It seems like a true story. But it also appears like fabrication. Crap. Aiya... dunno how much i can believe of it. At least it updated my miserable art knowledge.
anyway, erm.... read so much, i hope it's of some use for my gp. Dunwan to flunk it. But with so little time left, what else can i do? Scully all no use. wasted effort.
Anyway today, we are talking abt post-As plans at coro with esther, wanlin, jiayi. Talk until v fun. V kai xing. Make my mood lighten up alot. It's funny how i am freshened up and "pulled" out of "depression" so easily. Actually cannot say is depression, cos is always like tt wad. It's just a period of blues. So fun... thinking abt what will happen. Hopefully plans will go as planned. Troublemakers stay away!
On the bus, wanlin n me was like planning.. like back to vnr days. Not really wanna remind myself of then, but it's sorta fun in this own way then. Kinda miss it abit. Haha... ask them out sometime? Aiya... but e divide is so deep, it's weird to try to mend it now. Nvm. I'm still looking forward to post-As. Going taiwan. haha... going with my mom n sis, mabbe dad, zi you xing. Anyone wanna join? Okay.. dunno leh. Excited can go around by ourselves. Rare chance leh... my mother so kia si one. Now allow. Haha... scold her behind her back.
Anyway... so happy now. Dun really bother abt what to do in future. Dun wan to fan abt As. About studying. Abt my irritating mother. Aiya all e fan stuff. Happy tt's my mood card now. Good isn't it. So rarely do i ever get so happy. hopefully it wun be spoiled so soon. All the good always get disrupted sooner or later.
Anyway, yesterday was at MOS AGAIN, talking to ew and zebra. Dunno i got de zui someone anot, but ya lo... e atmosphere was weird. I also duncare to explain myself. Got a bit sian diao fedup, but cant pinpoint wad. Anyway they said something like... mabbe it's your problem not able to open up to people. Okay la... ya... i admit it's alot to do with me. But is that a problem? Or is that not a problem? Philosophical. Nvm.
Anyway, got the idea, a lot of stuff is like targeted at me. Call me sensitive or wad... but talking tat day was v taxing. Don't come asking me what it is. That inner voice is shouting at me. Like all e frustrations are brought out that day. The future, what to study. What will happen if u cannot write n talk? Remember? Anyway... ya la... i was quite ARGHHH... then. But now... i'm happy. So can write abt this stuff. hopefully i wont be caught up with these frustrations again. Hopefully.
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6:31 PM
6:31 PM
Saturday, October 08, 2005
| Your Animal Personality |
 Your Power Animal: Eagle Animal You Were in a Past Life: Whale You are active, a challenger, and optimistic. Hard-working, you are always working towards a set goal. |
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9:43 AM
9:43 AM
so sad....
| In a Past Life... |
 You Were: An Albino Poet. Where You Lived: Mongolia. How You Died: Decapitation. |
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9:39 AM
9:39 AM
ar!? but not that i mind...
| Your Daddy Is Johnny Depp |
 What You Call Him: Daddy Dearest Why You Love Him: He gives good spankings |
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9:35 AM
9:35 AM
Accurate meh?!
| The Keys to Your Heart |
 You are attracted to good manners and elegance. In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you. You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy. You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily. |
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9:33 AM
9:33 AM
| Your French Name is: |
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9:23 AM
9:23 AM
| You Are Balanced - Realist - Powerful |
You feel your life is controlled both externally and internally. You have a good sense of what you can control and what you should let go. Depending on the situation, you sometimes try to exert more control. Other times, you accept things for what they are and go with the flow. You are a realist when it comes to luck. You don't attribute everything to luck, but you do know some things are random. You don't beat yourself up when bad things happen to you... But you do your best to try to make your own luck. When it comes to who's in charge, it's you. Life is a kingdom, and you're the grand ruler. You don't care much about what others think. But they better care what you think! |
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9:18 AM
9:18 AM
| Your Hidden Talent |
 You're super sensitive and easily able to understand situations. You tend to solve complex problems in a flash, without needing a lot of facts. Decision making is easy for you. You have killer intuition. The right path is always clear, and you're a bit of a visionary. |
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9:16 AM
9:16 AM
| Your Japanese Name Is... |
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9:15 AM
9:15 AM
| Your Birthdate: November 27 |
 Your birth on the 27th day of the month (9 energy) adds a tone of selflessness and humanitarianism to your life path. Certainly, you are one who can work very well with people, but at the same time you need a good bit of time to be by yourself to rest and meditate. There is a very humanistic and philanthropic approach in most of things that you do. This birthday helps you be broadminded, tolerant, generous and very cooperative. You are the type of person who uses persuasion rather than force to achieve your ends. You tend to be very sensitive to others' needs and feelings, and you able to give much in the way of friendship without expecting a lot in return. |
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9:14 AM
9:14 AM
| You Should Learn Japanese |
 You're cutting edge, and you are ready to delve into wacky Japanese culture. From Engrish to eating contests, you're born to be a crazy gaijin. Saiko! |
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9:07 AM
9:07 AM
| Your Power Color Is Lime Green |
 At Your Highest: You are adventurous, witty, and a visionary. At Your Lowest: You feel misunderstood, like you don't fit in. In Love: You have a tough exterior, but can be very dedicated. How You're Attractive: Your self-awareness and confidence lights up a room. Your Eternal Question: "What else do I need in my life?" |
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9:05 AM
9:05 AM