Thursday, March 31, 2005
Some lame jokes to share...
“结婚仪式上，新郎和新娘干吗要手牵着手？”
“那是一种习惯，正如两个拳击手在开战之前要握握手一样。”
女：“人一老话就多。”
男：“照这么说，你从来没年轻过！”
彼得的母亲一下班回家，彼得便向她诉苦：“妈妈，今天爸爸打我两次了！”
“他为什么打你呢？”妈妈问。
“第一次是我让他看了写满2分的记分册。”
“那第二次呢？”妈妈急着问。
“第二次爸爸发现那记分册是他中学时候的”
受大嫂之托，监督小外甥志明做功课。看他一副漫不经心的样子，我苦口婆心地劝他：「志明，请你用点心好吗？」
凯杰立即有了反应：「当然好！」
心中正暗自高兴「孺子可教」之际，他又说：「姑姑，我想吃甜甜圈，你可以现在就去买吗？」
一对中年夫妇正准备睡觉，突然发现楼房着火了，两人惊慌失措地穿过烟雾弥漫的楼道向外跑。这时，丈夫无意中发现妻子脸上挂着近几年从未有过的甜蜜微笑。
“天哪！现在是什么时候，你还笑得出来！”
丈夫惊奇地问。 “我实在太高兴啊！”
妻子笑着说，“五年来，这还是第一次你和我一起出门！”
问：恐怖份子和女人有何不同？
答：恐怖份子可以谈条件，女人不行。
Its just me and you <3 .
9:16 PM
Friday, March 25, 2005
Yoz people... haha like some1 said my blog got cobwebs bleah. Haha so in e middle of e bt, i decided to change e template. Still alot of things undone. But mian xiang la.. heehee bear with it ba!
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12:55 AM
Sunday, March 13, 2005
Peps, let's talk about depression!!
WHAT IS A DEPRESSIVE DISORDER?
A depressive disorder is an illness that involves the body, mood, and thoughts. It affects the way a person eats and sleeps, the way one feels about oneself, and the way one thinks about things. A depressive disorder is not the same as a passing blue mood. It is not a sign of personal weakness or a condition that can be willed or wished away. People with a depressive illness cannot merely "pull themselves together" and get better. Without treatment, symptoms can last for weeks, months, or years. Appropriate treatment, however, can help most people who suffer from depression.
i noe a friend who has depression. She looks perfectly fine. Perfectly normal. Looks even happier than me. So i'm surprised when i heard she got depression. Eh... mabbe every1 has depression at one point in their life. e thing is to zhen shi this thing... dun think of it as a bad thing. It's just inevitable.. fate maybe. but this seems good...
Set realistic goals in light of the depression and assume a reasonable amount of responsibility.
Break large tasks into small ones, set some priorities, and do what you can as you can.
Try to be with other people and to confide in someone; it is usually better than being alone and secretive.
Participate in activities that may make you feel better.
Mild exercise, going to a movie, a ballgame, or participating in religious, social, or other activities may help.
Expect your mood to improve gradually, not immediately. Feeling better takes time.
It is advisable to postpone important decisions until the depression has lifted. Before deciding to make a significant transition—change jobs, get married or divorced—discuss it with others who know you well and have a more objective view of your situation.
People rarely "snap out of" a depression. But they can feel a little better day-by-day.
Remember, positive thinking will replace the negative thinking that is part of the depression and will disappear as your depression responds to treatment.
Let your family and friends help you.
Aiya... i go watch zong yi da ge da liao.. tata
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10:05 PM
Badminton... is something i loved... before. Is my fondest memory in sec school life. I miss mr wee, i miss waisan, i miss apple's hair.. every1 la...loudspeaker bena...even tiffany. Okay not so much on tiffany. E trainings are fun. E people are fun. Even mr wee's speeches are fun. But now... badminton has lost its meaning in my life.
Now.. it's only about training... about perfecting ur skill or we will lose. Ya.. sure we will lose. It's abt e competition, about e depression u feel when u didnt play ur best. It's abt sadness, disappointment. When i go to trainings lately, i see no friends. I see no j2s. They are nowhere to be seen. Ya.. sometimes i'm not there.. i pon. Yeah. Why? Cos no one's there. I see my seniors.. they ask did i go for trainings... wad can i say? I'm wordless.
In my 2 years here, i lost both my rackets... Great. I lost my attachment to badminton. I lost my passion. I even lost my teammates. Okay la... I'm over e sad part. I aint sad cos i'm leaving hcjc badminton team. I'm sad cos i'm leaving badminton behind me. ya.. pathetically sad. Maybe i will lose e ties i made in hcjc bt. Nvm. I dun feel a thing. Aiya... i'm crapping wadeva la.. i'm leaving badminton... tt's my point. Paiseh i was watching zhong yi da ge da... v comical.. suddenly no inspiration to write anymore....
Its just me and you <3 .
9:51 PM
Friday, March 04, 2005
Some people say that when we become j2, every1 changes. By which, i mean their character/personality. To a certain extent, yes, we do change. We become mugger. It's inevitable. Why? Because we got more workload, teachers are stressed, they need to finish e curriculum. We need to finish our tutorials, read our lecture, go for cca, organise things for juniors, go for social interactions, find time for recreation and most importantly, to sleep. Everyone just becomes more stressed. Den when we see others mug, we mug. When others get stressed, it's contagious.
Sleep. Deprived of sleep, we began to react irrationally. Simply put, weirdly. Tempers flare more easily. We become less tolerant of others. We just want time for ourselves. Need space to relac. We create space (as alex tan says) as a buffer zone mainly, to contain ourselves, as well as to block out others... this is for e safety of every1 anyway. I notice and experience for myself, how every1 wans to make sure of just every single minute they have. We pon lessons/CCA just to create e space/time to complete/attempt to catch up in the tutorials. In e end, every1 seems selfish, competitive and insensitive to others.
But this doesn't mean relations change for e worse when we get to j2s. Yes, we become more easily stressed, more tempermental, but in my opinion, bonds may even be strengthened further. In order for bonds to be strengthened, the pre-requisite will be a strong foundation on which ur relation is built upon. As stress levels mount, (but is still contained in a certain level), friends can become more understanding... sometimes.. haha. Some turns even more ultra-sensitive as to take care of ur feelings even more. Weird... but ya... people like this exists. Different.
Like I didn't do v well for chinese hist ao. Ya... tt's a fact, i expected it. It wasn't much of a shock or source of unhappiness for me. But den... suddenly every1 starts smsing me asking how i am coping... eh... weird... i was coping fine until ppl starts asking me... haha... should sae it this way... i didnt really care how much i did. I just noe eh... i got e result, it's not good. Okay lo... let's just forget it, tuck it somewhere hidden, have this irriating faint idea that there is a blemish in e record, but it's like i dun wanna recall wad it is. It's like i just filed this fact and tucked it into a messy cupboard. Den i aint bothered by it, until people requested for me to take out tt file and refile it. So... ya... tat's my defense mechanism. I appreciate e concern la... really. haha... but just let my defense does its work.
Actually today not really v ying xiang by e hist results... like i tewl kc, results dun affect it much. I just tuck it somewhere n go. But for relationships-wise, no, i cant do that. It just keeps haunting me... i feel shi ban when relations turn sour. Maybe tt's like what TIME says... wad really makes u happy can affect u e most... in a negative way. CCA wise, today hear some really discouraging news... damn depressing. Feel like we are e ones who are putting in e effort, but suddenly we have no support. e foundation is just not there, u cant count on it to support u. U fear tt any minute it just collapses. The problem is there... all this while, we choose to ignore it. We choose to let it just go by... but as leaders hor... is this e attitude? Shouldn't we be doing something? Is there anything we can do abt it.... Like i say j2 life can change alot of things... alot of commitments...
I'm thinking abt quitting badminton. I mean for real, like let's just end here before my memories of it turn bad. I dun wan to start hating badminton. maybe an end is a start to something good. I dun wan to keep thinking of... hei i need to practice, den i can play better, den i wun let my partner down... den mario wun be staring... berton wun be giving tt kinda face... or shaking his head... nowadays badminton is like a practice/habit, i dun derive much joy or satisfaction from it. I'm staying for wad? PEARLS? COMMITment? Ironically no... But of course i feel damn ke xi to give it up like tt. Thinking of ny badminton, i miss tt life alot. i'm a group person, i try to seek it in vnr, i tot i found it, den i lost it, and i hope to reclaim it. I found none in hc badminton team.. tt's for sure. I kinda find it in my class... sometimes it's there... sometimes it's not. I'm not sure exactly.
Eh... maybe i make a bad decision to come to jc... i dun feel like i'm doing wad i enjoy. I cant possible sae it truthfully in ur face i enjoy my life now. No i dun. It's not e frens, it's this system tt's at fault. Okay i dun like this kind of life... but i still haf to live through it. Let me complain alot... den i will continue to live this lifestyle i find meaningless. Ironic isn't it. Mabbe next time i will end up to be a producer? Or trek to some nature rainforest, yan jiu some plants. Or taking care of animals. I love animals... but no chance. Mabbe next time i wun be e big doctors or scientists or lawyers or politians ppl always said to be successful. But i will be happy. i will be. k... my hope is in e future. hAhah, come to think of it... isn't every1's hope in e future.
haha... anyway... i notice ms wong zui jing e yan sheng v weird la... i mean towards me ba? dunno anyone notice it not. v intuitive de dong xi. Mabbe i'm seeing things... or izzit my imagination? She seems insecured... needs yan sheng jiao liu to reassure herself? Alot of teachers do tt, fixed on one person whose response they are comfy with. Mr tang does tt.. alot. Some teachers de yan sheng v weird. Ms hia de yan sheng is e most weird one... a bit scary, she's not insecured leh... but is e most nan understand e yan sheng. Ms ong de yan sheng is always dwelling on somewhere/other ppl, so i cant really catch. But she doesn't fixed on anyone for v long one... it flickers about. Quite insecure either... needs ppl to respond. Actually from yan sheng can know how secure ppl feels. I'm a v insecured person, i cant hold eye contact for long. but i'm learning n trying. so next time if u realise i'm staring at u for a long time, i'm not GLARING! i'm just trying... haha. Try it next time... notice others ba... our class have a few ppl who just cant stand it... even for v v short times... interesting topic sia.. eh... weird... isn't only i who noticed?
Its just me and you <3 .
10:15 PM