Wednesday, November 24, 2004
Ruyan, your puppy's a Comedian
Your puppy's a people-pleaser whether he means to slide across the linoleum floor into his water dish or not. His animated antics might have been accidental at first, but it wouldn't surprise us if he does things on purpose now, just to hear you laugh. He just loves to keep you happy, and if playing the funny man works, then he'll do what he can to lighten the mood around your home.
He may not be the quickest to pick up on commands — but he's so full of personality, you might not be able to tell if that's just part of his shtick. It's the way he goes after things whole-heartedly that's so endearing — especially when he leaps before he looks. Some may call him clumsy, others may call him eager. But at the heart of it all is a truly funny friend with a good heart, and an even better sense of humor. They say that laughter makes the world go around. And with your furry friend, you're headed for an especially special trip.
Its just me and you <3 .
9:43 PM
Tuesday, November 23, 2004
sigh sigh... bdae coming, got two "outings" to go. Friday n sat. Sigh... sian, my bdae still have to plan activities. Sian... y cant u all just plan for me. Haha... but they aint my hui cong howta noe wad i like n dun like rite... Actually come to think abt it... i'm quite ma fan. But also my yao qiu very simple. just plan everything for me... let me bao tuo all e shu fu den can liao.
Zuo ren zhen fan. Got be-on-time shu fu, be-responsible shu fu, be-careful shu fu, notice-ur-fone-or-ur-mother-will-kill-u-if-u-dun-answer shu fu, be-guai shu fu, act-wad-others-expect-of-u shu fu, shu-n"u shu fu, society basis, racism, feng-jian-ideology shu fu.......etc etc etc. There's alot to be responsible abt.
I really just wanna some times be the bad gal or heck care gal. Just heck e **** n be shiok! i wanna stay out late, hang around singapore river/beach/downstairs... look at e sky, sleep, but got e need-to-go-home-or-my-mum-will-k-me shu fu. I've to live by my watch. Need to schedule my time n abide guai-ly. I just wanna dun care n just throw my watch away. Haha... i wan a dae w/o having to plan wad to do next or look once at e watch. Meaning i wan to be e follower, just u lead i follow w/o brains... enjoy my time. For once, i dun wan to be in control.
Haha... so in other words, i wan to be out-of-control! Of course cant be too li pu la. Haha freedom is e key man. Haha... so in other words... my perfect bdae present is a day w/o restrictions e.g. monetary, time, space, nagging mother, sterotype, expectations from others/myself. Hahaha... meaning really freeing myself. Mabbe like some mad activity like kayak into e sea den jump into e sea w/o caring how am i suppose to get to shore. But of course when i think abt how far i have to swim to shore, i stop there la.
I wan to late late at the nite play bball, but nobody play with me...n my mother will grumble grumble: aiya, yi yang wan liao, play wad ball. Wait ganna gui zou by bad people. E ppl there very pai one.... DOtz. i wanna sit beside singapore river watch e sun sets. Wanna jump into pulau ubin's quarry. Wanna ice-skate, wanna sky-dive, wanna scuba-dive, wanna whitewater raft, wanna play paintball, play karting.... but all need money. N money i dun haf.
Or just hang out with a bunch of frenz just crap relac. But e bad thing abt tt is... aiya... for those who noe me... i hate to talk actually.. haha u can say i got speech prob man.... okay tt's way too serious.. but my way of talking usu only those who noe me for some time can understand. Dunno y? Mabbe i'm translating chinese to eng or wad i dunno. Or i'm too soft or too fast. Sian... i see ppl rxn i just sian diao dunwan to tok. I also hate e awkward silence. So let's see, gatherings i dun really like to go. Make me feel left out. More of a listener than a talker. N i dunno how to wei ci relationship also... so i more prone to maintain those like... in same sch still... but old ties i very rarely will contact them... so very difficult to wei ci.
N i hate those kind of feelings... damn depressing.Let's sae i have high expectations of myself mabbe? N those expectations are built from how others react. So i often get those negative ones, or i think is negative one... so jiu er jiu zi, i will hu si luan xiang, den become withdrawn? Haha... okay now i sound psychotic. Aiya talking crap. Cya lo tata.
Its just me and you <3 .
10:51 PM
Wednesday, November 10, 2004
right now this moment... i'm at wanlin's house... haha trying to li xiao ppl.. but apparently no one answers their fone. Eh... cca day wada do. anyway tml wanna go k... this still cheaper can afford... but i also wanna go capacella (eh dunno how to spell). It sounds very nice... but bo liu needa save. Mabbe i go find a job, which i'm doing now.. Hoho. Bleah but really suspect i can find one.
Who will wan me?! No experience, wans flexible time leh. OMG. Okie... let's just put tt behind me first. Eh... wad do i wanna do?
To do list:
1. Play pool! but currently nobody is li-ing me... sianz
2. K... k so many times liao
3. Go Singapore Open... which i haf to ask ailin wad are e days i haf to go... or i need to pay!!! OMG i dunwan
4. catch some movie... i watch Shark's tale (farnie sia n hu's robert de niro), 2046 (shd give it one more chance), forgotten (e ad seems promising cool), eh.... Polar express (tom hanks in cartoon-like figure quite shiok.
5. Go escape... afterall it's free for nov babies
6. Of course play mahjong
7. Ice-skate? Blade? Zhi....
8. Slp.. eat... play? That sounds like a pig
9. plan land ex... which is currently becoming more n more erks... sigh discouraging...
10. xmas party? Sounds interesting n feasible. notice e word feasible.
11. Read alot of Charmed... wooooohhhh, i read a lot liao.. iwan new versions.
12. Watch a lot of TV.. like x-files, hk series, try to watch golden faith... damn nice
13. Chase esther faster watch finish tt show...
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Ok tt's a long to do list... so tada... i got some time rite. Excluding studying and doing hw. and eating and tv... ok still sian. Who wana go out? But one thing... i'm very broke...
Its just me and you <3 .
4:48 PM
Tuesday, November 02, 2004
frantic day... stressed week. Okay... lots to say. Let's start with sunday's scouts CIP project at AMK. Okay... i rushed there in time to start lunch. Haha... den start tying structure and do fire stuff. Den last min, the MC suddenly la me to be his co-host cos he needa somebody with good chinese. So amongst the HC rovers, i went up la. He relate to me his whole speech, den i spend like 10 mins only to translate before i went up. Not even time to rehearse. Damn sad. Damn stressed.
I was like... okay... now have to go onstage. NOW. u noe.. NOW. Den the GOH was Lee Hsien Long. Okie, just great. I can't really remember wad went wrong, but i remember introducing myself from Hua Qiao Zhong Xue, instead of HCJC. den lee hsien long was luffing away. OKay great. Den i was asking everyone to enjoy the lunch when it's at night. Den when i went downstage for a while, an auntie ask me... didn't memorise your script didnt u? Den i told her i was pulled onstage at the last min. Why didn't mohammad give me like the whole day to translate? I was there the whole day?!!
Anyway worse come to worse, i was directly translating mohammad's words onstage, when he asked residents to try up top-chef, he said almost look like top chef food. Den i direct translate until hao xiang shi top chef, ke shi hai bu shi. Den i.... die liao. Hope nobody catch that. Den mohammad still wanna me to stay on and sing along. Of course... i did... mouth some things and try to be the bass you mei you. But i SUX!!! BIG TIME!!! EXTREMELY BIG TIME. I think Assistant Commisioner of Scouts came up to me & said... forget your school, sigh. Arghhhh!!!!!!!
Okay... tt's an extremely bad experience, cos ppl i dunno start coming up to me... and said... you very nervous ar? nvm take it as an experience... Great. Just great. But come to think abt it, i can even mc onstage man, impromptu! Although i flopped, real bad, but nothing can get worst den this rite. Ah Q.
Anyway my schedule for last week was mad. tuesday, did i stay back to try out structure for sunday? i forget. wednesday did vnr thing dunno until wad time. thurs i think i went ktv, okok i remember liao.. den friday went to do the vnr fire pit thingy, den i think went to do pw i htink until late late? den on sat... haf vnr until i dunno wad time.. izzit den i go for pw? I confused liao. No... i went to halloween nite, reach home damn late. den sun went to piano, den scouts thingy. Den monday went to pw again, until late late... ANYWAY u get e msg, i nv reach home before 830 each day. Of course i nv got to eat a proper dinner, or get a good nite slp. I miss the sunset and warm dinner (i mean eating at home)
So u see... i'm quite sian of staying outside, so today i wanna go home after op. But ganna la to go out with pw mates. I wanna go one la... but not today. Or at least no so far. But i hear the places they say: Orchard (okie la.. but too chao... i wan some peace), Alexander (? how to go home?), West Mall?!!, Jurong EAst!!!!, JB?!!!, CAuseway (sama la). OMG, i wish for coro, or kap, or adam road or serene center. THere cannot eat meh? Still got pw to finish... got alot haben finish leh... did they realise tt? a lot of things to file and update. Argghhh!!!! i just wanna get it done asap. And of course i wanna race home before the sun sets. Sian.
So when they insisted i go... okay la i wanna suit along. But... in the end... dunno y la... mabbe the week too stressed liao, i broke down. u noe.. engine broke down. Aiya.. normally i wont be like tt, mabbe i ganna depression? Aiya... i need a break man. From school, from singapore, from vnr. From stuff, from exams, from ao chist!!! I wanna just rot at home, be a coach potato, watch tv, listen to songs, sleep, eat, be a pig!!! sian... go do pw nnow.
Its just me and you <3 .
8:58 PM
>READ TILL THE END
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> >This is a good story and is true, please read it all
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> >the way through till the end!
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> >I am a mother of three (ages 14, 12, 3) and have
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> >recently completed my college degree.
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> >The last class I had to take was Sociology.
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> >The teacher was absolutely inspiring with the qualities
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> >that I wish every human being had been graced with.
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> >Her last project of the term was called "Smile."
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> >The class was asked to go out and smile at three
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> >people and document their reactions.
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> >I am a very friendly person and always smile at
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> >everyone and say hello anyway, so, I thought this
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> >Soon after we were assigned the project, my husband,
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> >youngest son, and I went out to McDonald's one crisp
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> >March morning.
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> >It was just our way of sharing special play time with our son.
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> >We were standing in line, waiting to be served, when
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> >all of a sudden everyone around us began to back away,
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> >and then even my husband did.
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> >I did not move an inch .... an overwhelming feeling of
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> >panic welled up inside of me as I turned to see why
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> >they had moved.
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> >As I turned around I smelled a horrible "dirty body"
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> >smell, and there standing behind me were two poor
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> >homeless men.
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> >As I looked down at the short gentleman, close to me,
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> >he was "smiling".
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> >His beautiful sky blue eyes were full of God's Light
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> >as he searched for acceptance.
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> >He said, "Good day" as he counted the few coins he had
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> >The second man fumbled with his hands as he stood
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> >behind his friend. I realized the second man was
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> >mentally challenged and the blue eyed gentleman
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> >was his salvation.
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> >I held my tears as I stood there with them.
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> >The young lady at the counter asked him what they
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> >He said, "Coffee is all Miss" because that was all
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> >and warm up, they had to buy something. He just
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> >wanted to be warm).
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> >Then I really felt it - the compulsion was so great I
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> >almost reached out and embraced the little man
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> >with the blue eyes.
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> >That is when I noticed all eyes in the restaurant were
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> >set on me, judging my every action.
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> >I smiled and asked the young lady behind the counter
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> >to give me two more breakfast meals on a separate tray.
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> >I then walked around the corner to the table that the
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> >men had chosen as a resting spot. I put the tray on
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> >the table and laid my hand on the blue eyed gentleman's
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> >cold hand.
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> >He looked up at me, with tears in his eyes, and
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> >said, "Thank you.."
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> >I leaned over, began to pat his hand and said, "I did
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> >not do this for you. God is here working through me to
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> >I started to cry as I walked away to join my husband
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> >and son. When I sat down my husband smiled at me
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> >and said, "That is why God gave you to me, Honey.
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> >To give me hope."
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> >We held hands for a moment and at that time we knew
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> >that only because of the Grace that we had been given
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> >We are not church goers, but we are believers.
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> >That day showed me the pure Light of God's sweet love.
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> >I returned to college, on the last evening of class,
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> >with this story in hand.
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> >I turned in "my project" and the instructor read it.
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> >Then she looked up at me and said, "Can I share this?"
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> >I slowly nodded as she got the attention of the class.
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> >She began to read and that is when I knew that we as
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> >human beings and being part of God, share this need
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> >to heal people and to be healed.
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> >In my own way I had touched the people at McDonald's,
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> >my husband, son, instructor, and every soul that shared
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> >the classroom on the last night I spent as a college student.
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> >I graduated with one of the biggest lessons I would
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> >UNCONDITIONAL ACCEPTANCE.
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> >Much love and compassion is sent to each and every
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> >person who may read this and learn how to LOVE
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> >PEOPLE AND USE THINGS - NOT LOVE THINGS
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> >AND USE PEOPLE.
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> >There is an Angel sent to watch over you.
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> >An Angel wrote: Many people will walk in and out of
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> >your life, but only true friends will leave footprints in
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> >To handle yourself, use your head.
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> >To handle others, use your heart.
Its just me and you <3 .
7:45 PM