Friday, July 30, 2004
yoz! today is the big day before carnival!! hahaha... festive mood is everywhere. Teacher also damn slack. First period CAP, slack. Second period lemme think. Second and third is GP. Den mrs soo went to give birth. Hahaha... she finally give birth liao. Her stomach really very big, think is like either very heavy baby or two at one go. Anyway the good thing abt her giving birth is we got to slack!!! And fourth lesson, maths... ms hia went to do carnival thing so left us to our own devices. HOHOHO!!!
Today is a slack day!!! I walk around see people loitering everywhere except going to lesson. Haha. Den i go do my physics, but give up halfway. So nan! Siao. But mr tang today explanation abit the cannot understand la. Den listen to eugene explain. eh you dao li leh! Hahaha although he always run away before explaining all. Den yue yen and huimin was trying to explain to me about the wad line lead wad line in simple harmonic motion. Den they use their height to imitate the peaks of the curves. SOooo farnie!!!! Hahaha... in the end i FINALLY got ENLIGHTENED!!!
Haha... den i today realise NESCAFE MOCHA coffee very nice!!! hahaha.... shuang. Ok tt's beside the point. Anyway after today's physics, realise my physics really CMI man. Sian ar. Sad. hahaha. Anyway den today after bio lecture, abt pedigree map, so fun! Den our maths lecture got cancelled. Cos slacker teachers. Hahaha. Den we went to discuss stall and start practising. Honestly la... i think i sux at this kind of stuff. Cos do nails also fail. Do the braiding hair also fail. Aiya die la. Tml i shall slack around and collect money. hahaha. or do the hair dye spray lo. Bleah. Shit la me. Sux!!
I prefer going to the football stall. At least more like me. I aint that type to paint nails, braid hair. I need some action man! haha at least picking up footballs is better than putting stencil on nail. Sian diao. But that's guys' terroritory. So sad. Sigh cannot invade la. Luckily tml have traffic control. At least i no need always be at manicure stall or i can go badminton stall help out. Hahaha.... someone save me!!! And where's that zhi and yin yue?!!!! Dunno they coming not. Bleah. When will they come online?
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9:39 PM
Saturday, July 24, 2004
Yesterday got class dinner. Den i pon diao badminton. Sigh. Sian diao. Badminton so little ppl, no mood train also. Den we got an interesting session with wan lin and zichao. Cos we went to put the flag den we take a walk round the school. Den tok abt something abt wan lin. Hahaha. That one is secret. Den she very fan la. The whole day.
Den dunno y suddenly che until me. Tewl is stupid wan lin che until me. Forget liao. Mabbe is talking abt zichao. Asking him "esther leh. wad do u think of her?" Something to tt effect la. Den zichao divert the attention to me. Den started guessing who is the person in class. Den guess everyone on the guys list. Den i ask him, cannot be gal meh?! Hahahaha.... Den stupid zichao sae i cannot qiang berne's one. Stupid ar... who wan that gal!!
Den go back class bench liao cos "somebody" dun wan let "somebody" sit there very lonely. So we went back. Den dunno y che until zichao liao. Hahaha... Den Rui jie, boon and berne was there. Yin how also came back. Den we started interogating zichao! hahah we ask him wad he think of esther. Den at first he deny deny, den look here look there, den wanna dodge the topic, wanna che until me. But the guys hold him down when he try to escape. Den he say "Aiya... i dun know la" His tone quite ren zhen de gan jue, so must haf at least something la. Ho ho....
Hahaah... den we suddenly fang guo zichao. Cos he ran away to the other bench. Den i still run over to his bench side. I quite mad. Den zichao fan wen wo. Aiya... i dunno wad i was thinking that time, ask him... u think lor... see who is possible lor. I never tot of telling him la. Den he started guessing again. Den got 3 candidates, fei wen main leads and one more new person kok yong. Hahaha so farnie! kok yong! hahaha... i shant comment more... if not will be clue liao if anyone of them read my blog. the "them" refers to the 2 kpo kings.
Anyway quite farnie hear them say why is these 3 people. Ky suggest one got two is same as zichao. Dunno where they get the impression, must be these 2. So must cheng qing, those rumours is not real one. I didn't start them! I'm absolutely innocent. Swear! but like no one believe me. Sad. Okay anway den tt got alot of people started guessing. Hou lai... sheryl, timo, eugene also come. Den i think they also heard and start gossiping.
WAULAU!!!! I wanted to keep it a secret. I only let wan lin noe. Den okay la zichao still can keep secrets. But now like whole class gonna noe. I dunno to be see like fa hua ci. Despo. Waulau i wan status quo leh. Wait ppl will be so suspicious of me lor. wad shit! crap la. sigh.... who asks me allow them to tok so hard. Like xuan buing to everyone. Arghhhhh!!!! Stupid. Sigh. mabbe later some time den tewl esther. Mabbe la. see first.
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5:14 PM
Thursday, July 22, 2004
I had a very weird dream this morning. Haha... so weird so surprising. Haha... but bu fang bian say out so... too bad for you. Haha but quite kong bu, cos the dreams i'm getting are feeling very real. Like the last time, i dreamt i went hk, see xuan xuan also almost tot it's real. Even after i wake up, i tot i did go to hk! Alamak. Die. Very scared i will mix up the real world and the dreams. If really mix up den malu shi liao.
Today's dream i dreamt of something... someone i never tot i will dream of. WHo leh? Ms Ong? Ms HIa? Or ms lam? Hahaha... guess it yourself. Mabbe i dream of esther, wan lin leh? Or i dream of amanda? Zhi? But why cant dream them lor. Hongming is more possible. Wuliao. Erkss... Ok. Anyway sometimes i'm very fascinated by how my brain works leh. Can fabricate such astonishingly real plots lor. Very logical and realistic.
I mean who have dreams that has every detail explained? I'm like programming my own dreams lor. Gosh. Arghhhh!!!! Aiya... i hate online blogs....
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8:24 PM
Saturday, July 10, 2004
今天读了一本书.忘了书名.不要紧.电视播过,是关于一个拳击手.
拳击,不关我事.主要是书里的女孩.似曾相识.有事不可对人言真惨.这几天心情很差. 差到有如跌如谷底.超悲.算了啦.拜拜.
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8:30 PM
Wednesday, July 07, 2004
Wednesday. PE. A time to relax. Time to take my mind off other things.
Hahaha... wednesday is a time to relax and devote myself to sports!!! wohooooo... Anyway today we played ULTIMATE FRISBY. wrong spelling? it was nicer than i tot. Cos nanyang last time played frisby too. But it was damn boring. Throw here and there.
But in hcjc, we got to play games! But the mood a bit the weird. Cos i think a bit too competitive. I mean like ya if i play will be a bit rough la. But definitely enjoying myself. I see others play until too seriously liao. Thinking really hard how to like score. Eh eh.. tried to lighten the mood. But seemed to fail quite badly. Huimin was still benging her face. bleah.
Anyway after pe, we played soccer. I was abit like wary, should we play not? Cos all guys den 5 gals. Actually is 7 boys and 5 gals, quite balanced. But soccer is a guys game afterall. Wait malu also not good. Den when we started playing, i think i abit over enthu. Cos i was playing defence on famous five group.
Den no defenders there, so i overly enthu, run the whole backfield. Den even bu zhi tian gao di hou, try to tackle yuanwei. Hahaha. But sometimes still manage to tackle him leh! hoho.. lemme proud abit while i still can. But i really very lan4, cos kick until you qi wu li. Sometimes pass to people den like never eat rice, ganna qiang by yuan wei!! Very qi, den i will try to chase back. Den really like mad mad. Possessed ar.
Sigh dunno y la, today kick soccer until like mad mad. Aiya mabbe invading guys territory, quan sheng weird weird one. Bleah. Erks.
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9:54 PM
Recently, i've been getting very very bad headaches. This started during the block test. I scare it will become migraines. I read an article on TIME or something on migraines. Sounded very complicated and serious. And damn difficult to get rid of it. Remember that night before maths, there was a big blackout?
I was still trying out the maths questions at the back of the booklet. Hui lin was asking me to figure out some questions. Den i realise i totally forgot how to do maths!! Die!! Panic panic. Den do until two plus. Ask my sister how to do maths. She also long forgetten her maths!?!
That night, i was damn stressed. So stress until i started hearing noise, or voice or wadeva. Anyone ever has that experience? Like the room is really very quiet, almost can hear a pin drop, but i hear a lot of noise. Seems like the noise is made up of voices from the mind. Like suddenly the whole world is talking. Yet it doesnt sound like voices. Confusing eh?
It's like hearing a lot of background noises, amplified like a million times. DUnno howta describe. Tell you if you got this experience before. At least lemme noe i'm not going mad. I really damn scared that night. I tot i was turning mad. Now den i understand why people would black out or turn mad cos of block test. Sigh.
Den during maths test the next day, midway through, i hear those noise again. I dunno think it's supernatural in nature. heehee. but seriously the room is very quiet, for those who were there too will noe. But the noise is soo.... wau lau. I try very very hard to control from shouting out. Cos i wanna shout "KEEP QUIET LA!!!!!" but heng i didnt. I think i was very figdety. DUnno if anyone notice?
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9:46 PM
Monday, July 05, 2004
Today morning Euro Finals just over. Portugal lost. 0-1 to greece. Frankly speaking, Greece defence is damn zai. They deserve to win. Portugal have utterly no way to break through their defence. Even Ronaldo with his weird dribbling cant pass through. And Greece goalkeeper is damn zai! One of the best goalkp i ever seen.
But Greece attacking is not very good also. But portugal defence is so much lan-er. Can only a few people defend when greece is attacking. So vulnerable. Scolari why like tt? Never take care of defence. And so late den change Paulente! Change to Postiga or Gomes la! Portugal play until so lan. I reget staying up to watch lor. As lan as on the first match.
But Portugal also very pia! Figo was marked like by three four defenders but can shake them off already very remarkable liao. Ronaldo tried, but he still too unstable. Aiya, Figo going off liao. last match. Come to think ronaldo is going to take over him.... errrks.. I just cant stand ronaldo. His style too weird, but his damn fast and change of direction very fast. Makes defenders confused! Hoho.
But Portugal still lose. Approaching the end, after greece scored, the Portugal team was losing steam man. They chen bu zhu qi! But for goodness sake, who can! Ronaldo was damn pissed, can see cos he was almost swearing at the referee. But he so young, cant blame. Den got this idiotic stupid supporter, who ran into the field and threw a barcelona banner on Figo den he deliberately run right into the net. Siao guy! Dunno wad the hell he thinking. Wasting portugal's time!!! Sai. And destroy their momentum.
And dammit lor... Figo! Why be so hard on Figo, his last game leh! You crap...wadeva guy. Very yi han. I was like stoning in the last few minutes. Yuan wei!!! I wanna kill that guy. He was just sitting near me. But he was like 'directing' Greece for the kill lor!!! Like the coach literally, or doing the commentary himself. Almost cant control wanna throw something at him. Arghhh!!!!! He so so SO get on my nerves!
Den Greece won. Ya... they won. Ya. My mind just blank out. Den i see Ronaldo on the tv crying. I forgot who sae something like cry for wad... Cry for wad shit? Sai la... you never play on a team, you dont know how sad it is to train so hard, den seeing your teammates lose. Seeing all you tried failed. Seeing how hard you tried you still cant make it. Forget it... you are not on a team, you wont understnad.
Den i cannot control myself also. i just heck the others, and started crying. I mean not cry la. Like suddenly geng ye... den sob sob. Trying to like make it softer, but i dunno others know not. Bao zhe the pillow trying to soften it, but quite obvious i think. I hear wan lin whispering abt something abt someone crying liao. But i cant hear, dun even bother to hear. If i do heck care abt wad others say, den i have reached a very chan chan stage liao.
Dunno y cry la. from the start, i support portugal all the way man. Esp when i noe figo's gonna leave. All his effort. Sai. See his determination. Starting to believe determination can like ke fu everything. But doesnt seem the case. Den see ronaldo... he's still a kid like us. Figo didnt cry. But the tv never film him much after that. When ronaldo cry, i suddenly just cant control. Scare myself also. Dunno la. Too emotional liao. Sian.
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2:45 PM
Hahaa... my personalty result... quite true, always get this result, but it make it sound so rare type....
Introverted iNtuiting Feeling Judging
by Marina Margaret Heiss
INFJs are distinguished by both their complexity of character and the unusual range and depth of their talents. Strongly humanitarian in outlook, INFJs tend to be idealists, and because of their J preference for closure and completion, they are generally "doers" as well as dreamers. This rare combination of vision and practicality often results in INFJs taking a disproportionate amount of responsibility in the various causes to which so many of them seem to be drawn.
INFJs are deeply concerned about their relations with individuals as well as the state of humanity at large. They are, in fact, sometimes mistaken for extroverts because they appear so outgoing and are so genuinely interested in people -- a product of the Feeling function they most readily show to the world. On the contrary, INFJs are true introverts, who can only be emotionally intimate and fulfilled with a chosen few from among their long-term friends, family, or obvious "soul mates." While instinctively courting the personal and organizational demands continually made upon them by others, at intervals INFJs will suddenly withdraw into themselves, sometimes shutting out even their intimates. This apparent paradox is a necessary escape valve for them, providing both time to rebuild their depleted resources and a filter to prevent the emotional overload to which they are so susceptible as inherent "givers." As a pattern of behavior, it is perhaps the most confusing aspect of the enigmatic INFJ character to outsiders, and hence the most often misunderstood -- particularly by those who have little experience with this rare type.
Due in part to the unique perspective produced by this alternation between detachment and involvement in the lives of the people around them, INFJs may well have the clearest insights of all the types into the motivations of others, for good and for evil. The most important contributing factor to this uncanny gift, however, are the empathic abilities often found in Fs, which seem to be especially heightened in the INFJ type (possibly by the dominance of the introverted N function).
This empathy can serve as a classic example of the two-edged nature of certain INFJ talents, as it can be strong enough to cause discomfort or pain in negative or stressful situations. More explicit inner conflicts are also not uncommon in INFJs; it is possible to speculate that the causes for some of these may lie in the specific combinations of preferences which define this complex type. For instance, there can sometimes be a "tug-of-war" between NF vision and idealism and the J practicality that urges compromise for the sake of achieving the highest priority goals. And the I and J combination, while perhaps enhancing self-awareness, may make it difficult for INFJs to articulate their deepest and most convoluted feelings.
Usually self-expression comes more easily to INFJs on paper, as they tend to have strong writing skills. Since in addition they often possess a strong personal charisma, INFJs are generally well-suited to the "inspirational" professions such as teaching (especially in higher education) and religious leadership. Psychology and counseling are other obvious choices, but overall, INFJs can be exceptionally difficult to pigeonhole by their career paths. Perhaps the best example of this occurs in the technical fields. Many INFJs perceive themselves at a disadvantage when dealing with the mystique and formality of "hard logic", and in academic terms this may cause a tendency to gravitate towards the liberal arts rather than the sciences. However, the significant minority of INFJs who do pursue studies and careers in the latter areas tend to be as successful as their T counterparts, as it is *iNtuition* -- the dominant function for the INFJ type -- which governs the ability to understand abstract theory and implement it creatively.
In their own way, INFJs are just as much "systems builders" as are INTJs; the difference lies in that most INFJ "systems" are founded on human beings and human values, rather than information and technology. Their systems may for these reasons be conceptually "blurrier" than analogous NT ones, harder to measure in strict numerical terms, and easier to take for granted -- yet it is these same underlying reasons which make the resulting contributions to society so vital and profound.
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2:32 PM