Friday, October 31, 2003

I did something terribly stupid today. No, specifically yesterday. I went to post my translation of an article of Jessica on bravenet. Then there is this one word "domineering" which is sorta wrong. And this was part of the sentence JEss was making on Esther Kwan. So an esther kwan fan came to Jess forum to complain.

I really didn't meant to create such a havoc. If i had known, i wouldn't even try to translate. blame it on my english, wadeva. Argh. And you know what, the worst thing is i'm another Esther's fan. Die. Sorta make the two gangs fight. Hope not, of course. I've written an apology on both Jess and Esther's forum, hope can appease the fire. But die, i saw a Jess fan going to Esther's forum to complain! Argh how?!

But now, thank goodness everything okay liao. They not fighting anymore, i hope. I didn't cause like two gangs to fight, which is good news. Yup. The people in the forum really very nice. Bleah.

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12:46 PM

Tuesday, October 28, 2003

Yesterday i should think i did the most feng thing in my life --> i joined a fan club. Dunno how i click click click, i came to this yahoo! group fan club for xuan xuan. This is specially for singaporean fans, mabbe tt's wad attracted me. Anyway i got to learn winnie, she's very fun, very enthu kind of person. Very gan ran xin person. Anyway then they mention there will be a meeting for the fan club. I think the fan club only establish quite recently, and i really pei fu them so gan, dare to come out meet even though we dunno each other at all. I still abit wary la, at least must chat online, if not meeting tt time no hua ti how?

Anyway they mentioned xuan xuan may be coming singapore for something, mabbe our fan club can get to qing her out? That will be so SHUANG!!!! OMG! Can meet xuan xuan leh! Come to think of it, fan club really fun leh! I must get sy and geraldine to join! YUe xing yue excited. Okay nvm, calm down calm down. ANyway today after phy pract, went to eat at prince with sheena, xuan, liming. Sheena asked me whether the story i wrote below is true, you think leh?!

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10:30 PM

Saturday, October 25, 2003

Before grad ceremony, amanda, meis and me went to Orchard. At first we wanna buy wong lao's poster, but den not much money left. anyway we went to eat pastamania, x ar. Then we went heeren took neoprint. So long! But very fun taking, although we dunno where to look at first. Then initially i wanna go taka go see that qiannu book zhi was talking abt, but sadly no time. Nvm luckily we rush back in time.

Anyway, nothing much after tt, until we were queuing to go to stage as a class. Then mrs chua was like checking name tags the sorta thing. Then cos my nametag like fading until no more, so i abit scare scared. And for those who noe, like sheena, i quite scared of her one. Cos got bad record with her. Anyway den she came to me and told me "Ruyan, you are a dark horse, you know that?" Den i was like hiding my nametag, cos i thought she was talking abt hai quan zi ba that horse. So i like shy away. Then she was like "no no!" den kao nearer to me. OMG den someone interrupt her or something. Den i was anxiously waiting for her to continue.

Den she explained cos my normal results like not very outstanding, den who noes prelims physics results suddenly so zai. Den i was like wide-eyed. Weilin like my vocal piece, said what i wouldn't say. She asked mrs chua izzit, i thought she normally results also very good. I just shrugged shrugged say nothing. But actually i feel quite weird. Cause i'm disappointed why she kan bian me. But at the same time also happy cos mabbe she's notice me liao!? Mad rite? so contradicting. Anyway i'm very glad she told me tt. At least put a closure to my phobia of her. Heehee. Anyway after that we went onstage. Den michelle bo huai hang qing, go hug wong lao. at first we shuo hao dunwan whole class dunwan. Who knows they all started hugging! Arghh! But later i still didnt hug.

Den on my way down, i nearly fall down lor. I was walking very very fast. Den like sliding down on the stairs, almost landed on my bottom. Luckily never, if not malu si! Anyway next time i went up for the excellence in maths and science, luckily i walk slower this time. I very qi myself why both times i go onstage, i never look at the teachers onstage (esp mrs wong, not sheena's mrs wong) or at my classmates sitting down there. Liming told me they wanna stand up i didn't notice leh! Ops. Too nervous liao. Anyway den later i spotted selene in the sec3s group. Haha surprise she will volunteer.

After the ceremony, we had the reception. There i never really got a chance to eat. Cos i went around finding badminton people. Den we kept taking photos before we can eat lor. Den wanna eat with eliz and cher one, also ganna pull away by yiling to find mrs wong. But we didnt find that mrs wong, instead we found another mrs wong. Den mrs wong was like dragging me nearer. But i was so nian, dun wanna go near her, but nvm la. Anyway den later took with mrs chua. I think i yue lai yue admire her liao. Not sheena's kind of admiration for mrs wong though. At least not scared of her liao. Okay i gtg, ganna beaten by this idiot mosquito 5 times just when typing this entry. I must jiu1 it out! Tata~ Everyone jiayou!

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11:05 PM

Grad Ceremony today. NJC Open house before tt. NJ dun really make me feel very warm or wad, although judy was there. Perhaps becos she was there, i couldn't get to see alot of other ccas. The first thing is she pull me to the stuffy gym where badminton is. Then i played against Xiaoli, who is really very Dali. So long never play, play until i panting like shit.

Anyway we met Cher on the way. Then we went to shooting range to shoot. The rifle was sooooo heavy, 5 kg! Then i like cant even take it off the table. Sooo heavy! Then the card terribly small, i got two shoot in. Then i went to try pistol, much lighter and easier. But the first two shots all out. Bleah. Den i become more and more li hai, one by one nearer and nearer. And the person not very intimidating, so i dared to stay and try a few more shots. Then got one quite near bull's eye oh! Ego ego. Anyway cher more li hai, wear specs liao, all three shots got go on the card.

Anyway cher was very tempted to go nj, i wasn't that tempted. Bleah. Except i really like the badminton and the air rifle part.

Its just me and you <3 .
10:25 PM

Friday, October 24, 2003

刚才在 sina.com 竟然发现自己写的 <<倩女幽魂 -> 三大感人故事>> 里有两个故事竟然被人标为精品，哈哈，笑死我! 我写的东西是精品! 精品是素质高的作品， OMG 。不过听了很爽! 起码有人欣赏，突然有点想当作者或编剧，很有满足感。

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9:32 PM

I actually intended to write something for everyone in my 4 years of this part of my life in my autograph book, but nvm i shall write some online too! These people include alot of people, adults, badminton mates, my best friend etc etc.

First, classmates:
Michelle: The first thing tt came to my mind is POOR english rep. Aiyo, everytime has to negotiate for us with Mdm Yick. Then the next thing is her, hahaha, very very contagious laughter! Everytime she will laugh and laugh and then cover her face and her whole face will turn red. Then she will look very apologetic. Sometimes she''s talking talking then she find wad''s she''s toking is very funny then she will start laughing den very continue, very cute! Hahah.

Xue Chen: Aiyo, my impression of her is ting liu at the eng lesson, cos she always talking to lingyi. Haha, they two will always talk to each other, like very close close like tt. And her chinese is very zai, cos she always reading chinese books. Forever seeing her reading chinese book, like every minute. But knows she like ni kuang''s wisely books, i also! eh, once la. The books she read very nice, i also hope i got the time to read those. Nvm.

Jane: Best model student i ever knew. Soft spoken? Shy? nah. She''s none of these. She''s very friendly, very approachable, very VERY helpful. Always remember her indian tuitoree? She''s forever so sweet, so pink like casie! And her mother also very zai, head of parent support group? I know she''s very impt person in the group, dunno wad post la. Anyway jane was the pride of 4/10 and also 2/5!

Zhixiu: Hahaha! Eh, very volatile, and explosive! Always remember her hair, like cao like tt. hahaha, so zhishuai person, can always chao with ms wong. VEry gan also. Then she is so high-pitched. haha got a period of time really scared of her, must avoid her if not she will scream into my ear "Arghh!!! Why MY Qiye have to die!!!" den will cling onto me, den i will "How I KNOW!!!". . But at the same time, also wanna she to appear, so can chao abt Qiannu. Cos she also deadhard qiannu fan! Den she''s the first to really acknowledge i like Hongye and say i resemble Hongye!

Lisa: haha, although we dont talk much, but memory is mostly when we went to watch matrix tt day. We were eating in Yoshinoya, den she was really humorous. Actually she quite funny person, but too shy, rarely talk. She''s really very very good to hang around with, but den again, talks too little. If we hadn''t went out together tt day, i would have gone away with the impression tt she''s a very introvert person, which is not true!

Xiuxia: eh haHA~ okay eh one thing very baoli! remember i once told casie dunno how xx will get married one day. Me quite bad la. Haha but her hot temper ar. *shake head. But she''s forever very you yi qi, reminds me of sancai''s frankness and jian yi yong wei. tt time when we were tan-pai-ing with mdm yick, she just stood up like tt and talk li zhi qi zhuang-ly, scare me ar. But she''s tt kind if see guy mistreat gal will go forward and slap the guy type. And she is the ONLY one who will pinch me. Grrr... Anyway she has a soft heart for her prawnie, which everytime i mention her face will soften and become very sad. :( Must have more faith in physics, can liao.

Casie: Hahaha the pink girl. Very nu ren girl. I mean she's the kind of xiao nu ren woman. no bad intentions k. At first i really dun like this kind of character one, cos very different from me. VEry tinghua, call mother, scare spiders those kinda of insects la. But den from her, i learnt to appreciate and xing shang this kinda of character and jie shou(accept). Haha, casie very wei da oh, change my perspective totally. Anyway SMP was a damn fun period, remember she taught me the "na ge na ge lor, jiu shi na ge lor!" Then we really can gossip alot together, haha, about yiling and someone someone lor. Then we two will become lightbulbs.

Quijun: Aiyo, the very very independent and commander like leader. Her eloquency, her confidence, her air, wadeva is so leader-like. Admire admire, but it's something i know i wont have, but i also dunwan. Haha. Anyway very happy for her when she became president of SC, although i was caught btw her and ailin. Quijun can become very scary when i first saw her scolding the councillors in our class. But she can also be very blur and dazed in class. She also cute cute, call me YAN YAN. Then i will call her QQ.

Yiyun: ah ma, my son, jiji, alot of nicknames la. JIJI is i te you one k. Ji=chicken, den me yaya, ya=duck. The origin got some long story behind, but nvm. This woman very mad one. Can suddenly xing zhi lai den dance around in class. Can mad mad dance in kbox rock and roll. can quarrel with anyone, esp sharleen. But den she also very xi xing, always bring alot of medicine and plasters alot la. She like xiao ding dang like tt. Ask got panadol? Yes. Got plaster? Yes. Got bao ji wan? yes. Got BATTERY? YES! tt time class clock spoil cos no battery, den she take out from her bag BATTERY! Shocked dao, wad does she bring to school everyday ar!

Sharleen: the very pro-Jay Chou fan. His no. 1 fan in class. She was the one who really made me xing shang Jay, notice Jay's songs. On the bus, she will always talk alot alot alot with me abt Jay. Abt his MTVs, sing to me his songs, rap to me. Then tell me his little actions on the show she sees on SCV. Haha she really very feng over Jay, but it's alright lor, sharleen really, you shall see me feng. You aint tt bad! Initially thought sharleen abit hostile looking and independent, but later realise actually she also fan abt alot of things. Sharleen, must xue xiuxia, be sancai!

Kim: Haha, we just celebrated her birthday today! So fun, "secretly" buying her the cake. She always smiling den cute cute like tt. In class, when i pass to her things, she will be smiling. Never saw her sad before, but know from amanda she fan abt alot of things. Very surprised. But kim very good sportswoman! Arghh...jealous jealous. And got very good friends also, jealous jealous, so kim dun worry too much, see you got so many good friends. Really wanna know you better, since amanda made you seem such a good fren which i really shudden miss making.

Fervin: most prominent thing-> hysterical laughter. Hahahah. like witchlike tt. haha esp in lower sec even worse, den like few days fa zhuo few times. Hahah. no la, kidding. next prominent thing: you also quite in favour of forensics! hehee. At first you really appear quite sadist haha. But no la actually you watch those shows like csi or those kind very like tt kinds i like to watch, so quite similar la. From the talk with mr tan den i know you plan sooo far liao.

Zhenglan: People wanna separate siamese twins, i think you wanna join together with xinyi to become as one. haha, hui rou and i have the same conclusion, u two cant live w/o each other. If separate liao how? I think if anyone of u is a guy, you two will get married lor. Aiyo. Haha. And you ar always smile so vibrantly, esp make me look forward to school alot in sec 3. Haha. Anyway wad do you talk to huirou abt me, like you two have been yan jiuing me! ALOT! but very fun to hear huirou's analysis, but always dun tell me all of it. Diao wo wei kou!

Shiling: Why your english so good for wad? make me so lan :( hahaha at first in sec 1 really surprised by your english accent, but listen long enough, i get accustomed to it den feel sense of accomplishment esp when other class people cant understnad wad u talking, but i do. Heehee. Not meaning to suan you or wad k. Then your compos forever so lihai, when can i even get 10% of your zao4 yi4? Sigh, dun be so lihai la.

Yuanyi: always see you taking 157. But always very quiet den sneak away like tt. No la, not saying u zhi bi or wad, but talk MORE! Heehee, but you with Zhixiu can chao alot. Hahaha, very fun to see you all chao. With xiebo also. Keep suaning her. I abit sadist rite? Dunno how you survive Zhixiu, but very lihai. Haha. See you study clit very ren zhen tt's another side of you la.

Laura: Your physics mei hua jiang. Physics rep physics so good! And you oh, 4 years know you, still so guai and quiet. Although this year cos sit beside kaiyun, this mad mad girl, become more da sheng liao! Haha. How is life beside her?! Terrible? haha. Anyway Laura how you become ah ma's lao po? Why become one of his(?) so many lao pos? He ku! If you more xiong can beat him (?) but den hor you so gentle.

Lin Yan: Haha you are just so mad over cats! when i heard of your obsession over cats, so happy cos got animal lover in class. Then mad over PS games! Like yuhshin like tt. Haha compatible pair! Your drawing really very nice leh. Admire admire! LIke so cool, so easy, but i so ke lian, draw one thing takes very very long. Sigh. Oh ya and english so good, cant stand you ar! haha

Yuh Shin: Aiya, like everytime go over your side, will hear you whining to sheena one. Haha, dunno how sheena can stand it, but haha. I still remember you reading chinese in the library, so funny. Hahahaha cant stop laughing. Anyway i think you love ps games, pc games? more than your life like tt. And your drawing skills are like Lin Yan one lor, so zai. But very farnie is both of your drawings like same isnt it? Like directly out of copymachine.

Liming: zai kia! So li hai for wad haha no la. Sports good, studies good, jealous jealous. And can you dont be so tall?! Everytime stay under the bball basket, can snatch all the ball. Cannot fight with you one lor. And wad''s more, hands legs so long, the ball forever stuck with you! Haha. At first really thought you are that sort of cool cool guy type, but actually you are the cute cute type. And is not act cute, is really always so cute. Haha. Nan de nan de. Keep tt smile going.

Ling Ee: Hate pronouncing your name. ma fan. Haha, aiya you are always very mocking. Haha if we aint good frenz i surely very irritated by you. Luckily got to know you better, know you aint those kind of du2 she2 fu4 type. And very fun listening to you 3 gossip abt people. No la, also becos i love debating over qian nu with you3. Then love your humor when you said Xiebo will surely get caught by mrs chua for her weird weird dangling hair band. And yesterday you corrected my grammar in front of the hc guide! malu ar. nexttime can be critic oh.

Anqi: QIqi ar qiqi. I will always remember someone ban4 gui3 call me during lifeskills camp. And i really thought u SHOULD BE very brave one. Who knows that time ask you throw away a cockroach, you see the cockroach den you literally JUMP UP! hahhahaha. eh den realise gradually actually you very xiao nu ren. See ou xuan can jump up and there, wave hands here and there and get totally excited over her! haha another side of anqi tt surprises me. Dunno you still got how many sides undiscovered.

Geraldine: The first person i knew in the class except for those in 2/5. Knew though waisan, haha very honoured hor on first day ger. Anyway waisan told me quite alot abt you oh, so hardworking i cant believe it. Most hardworking person on earth. Tao lingyi de hua, one who cant stop copying every single word the teachers say or write. True lor, during eng lesson, only you scribbling away! But keep jiayouing!

Huilin: Worse student a teacher can ever have. Heehee. But best scientist on earth i think. Alot of quests i never thought before will pop up from her, den i will be huh? stunned dao. Must liu yi this person, mabbe next great scientist is her! Anyway everytime hafta waste a lot of phone bills on her, heehee, no la. Can talk over hour before phy tests, wad tests tests. If next day got test, the phone for me the night before surely from her! hahah. so zhun shi. Tolong ask teacher la, you think i really teacher ar! But at least you make me feel i still got some worth.

Sheena: thin person with a big appetite, as big as the stomach of the whale. Jiu ming! haha very subjective person, if the teacher is someone she likes, she will surely be very guai and attentive, but if it's someone like ostrich, den ap will come out one. Also very ke lian, cos forever people thinks she qi fu amanda, but is amanda qifu her also. But actually sheena is always qi fu amanda, while amanda mocks at sheena. Then always song yong me leave amanda alone to fend for herself. So bad.

Weilin: Her pet phrase- hao leng ar! Aiyo like every other joke all leng xiao hua. Really weilin, alot of things you say are leng xiaohua are not meant to be xiaohua, they are just comments. But weilin, your laughter ar horrible ar! haha but very tu chu oh! Can laugh until literally qian fu hou yang! So dramatic ar! Forever have a smile so vibrant so optismistic, so good! i will always remember when both of us laugh at lingyi until wanna cry liao for her brilliant singing.

Lingyi: haha, whenever i recall the singing episode, i wanna luff until cry. Dunno how you can continue singing after tt part when your voice zao xia. still sae trying to r and b, real anot. Hahah. Anyway actually your singing really very good one, and sing very loud, no wonder weilin and i can hear so clearly. But suddenly so anti-climax. I really influenced by weilin den luff until like tt. You very lihai, we suan you until like tt, you also nothing like tt. Peifu!

Huiling: horrible woman, always study so fast, so many times. Ask you clit finish study mei, you say No cos habben finish second or third time! ... me habben even finish once lor. Tolong! And i will always remember the pract lessons, when we blur blur scrambled here and there. Then have to clear up very quickly. Then have that 10 test tubes breaking incident. Sigh. I shall be more careful next time, i hope.

Fenella:

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12:01 PM

I got an essay here. People help me correct, give me some tips wadeva la. Just help me improve my english!

Q: Looking back over the past year, what particular event or experience do you remember most clearly, and why? (J 1993)

It happened almost six months ago. I was sitting on my bed, with both legs held close to my body. My hands draped over my legs, pulling them even closer into fetal position. I snuffled, uncontrollably. My spectacles were already blurred. Furthermore my eyes hurt. I had a fight with my mother. I could not remember how the fight started, but I remembered it was just another of our fights. I recalled blurting something which I absolutely should not have said. It must have been a terrible mistake. I made her exploded in another of her fiery tempers. She raised her voice at me, her voice trembling with anger and venom. I did not want to hear her nagging, furthermore get an earful, so I stormed back into my room. Her nagging stopped after I slammed the door flat.
I cuddled amongst my bolster and blanket. It made me feel comfy and protected, being surrounded by them. Not long after, my bolster was soaked with my tears, which flowed fast and free. My mind was raging with anger. I was angry because of her insensitiveness. My mind was flooded with sorrow. I could not help feeling dismal because I should have stayed put and talked it out with her, but I did not. Memories from past fiery exchanges flashed by.
“Why do I have such a money-obsessed daughter?” These were the most hurtful words that I had ever heard.
“Am I truly such a failure in her eyes? Just what am I to her?” I questioned myself.
I could not recall for how long had I stayed cooped up in my room, crying till my eyes were swollen red. When I looked at the bedside clock, I realized it was around 10pm. I suddenly saw that my sister’s pillows and blanket were in my room and realized she needed them tonight. She slept in my room the night before and had left them there. However, I was in no emotional state to sleep with her in the same room that night. Therefore I gathered her pillows and blanket, stacked them nicely and was about to open the locked door.
Out of the blue, something struck me. If my mother would to see the things lying outside on the floor, she would think I was having another of my horrendous attitudes. Hence I decided to slip a note to explain to my sister. In my note, I told my sister the real reason why I flared at my mother. During that period, I was pressurized by so many things. She just happened to get on my raw nerve and triggered my outbreak.
At that time, I was just recovering from a back injury and had a terrible time trying to fit back into the badminton team. I had not exactly returned to the standard I was before I attained my injury. I never told her the pressure I was under. Concurrently, piano lessons were another source of pressure. I had not been practicing frequently. My teacher was utterly upset with my playing. I thought she sounded disgusted. Furthermore school examinations were just round the corner.
Everyone was telling me I need to place them in top priority. Piano practice, badminton training, schoolwork. All these required time, which I so desperately needed. That day I just could not endure the stress any longer. Any false façade I had put up was dissolved readily. I exploded like a balloon. I wanted my sister to relate this to my mother, hoping she would start to understand me. I really wanted for her to understand me. However, that was something which I dared not place hopes for. Silently, I pried the door open and placed the pillows, blanket and the note on the floor. I closed the door again gently. I returned to my crouching position, hoping to hear my sister’s exclamation soon. Instead I heard my mother.
She roared. She hollered.
“What are you trying to do? Having another of your so called young mistress’ tempers, I suppose? You better get out this instant”
“Get out!” her cries continued. She knocked furiously on the door.
“Bang! Bang! BANG!”
“You get out THIS INSTANT!”
I pulled the blanket over my head. I wanted to keep her out of my mind. I did not want to hear her. Every knock on the door was like a stab into my heart. One, two, three… Forceful, strong, excruciating. This was the moment I suddenly understood what “heart-wrenching” mean. The heart could literally clench together. I could not breathe. An excruciating pain was threatening to tear my heart apart. Not too long after, my tears soaked my blanket wet. Through the blanket, I saw the fluorescent light. The light was distressing. I could not see it for another second, so I crept toward the switch which was beside the door. My mother was still very agitated. She was swearing from the opposite side of the door. After I switched off the lights, I jumped quickly back to bed.
In the darkness, I hid under the covers. I could still hear her words. Bitter and vengeful. I cried in desperation, whining. I pled for her to stop. I cried for her to go away. It only aggravated her fiery. She did not seem to hear me. Instead her voice raised up an octave. I was certain the neighbors could hear us. I whined for her to stop. She was hurting me badly, making me wept like a baby. I slid off the bed and cuddled in a corner, putting my hands over my head, trying to shut off her telling off in vain. I sat on the chilly tile floor, shivering in fear and grief.
“Just why had not she noticed the note?”
Gradually the dressing-down subsided. She must had been exhausted from all those tongue-lashing or my sister had noticed the note. However, I had little idea of what happened soon after. I was dazed. My mouth was hanging open. My spectacles were thrown to another corner of the room. I could no longer feel the tears even though they were flowing in torrents. Tears held no meaning anymore. My world suddenly came to a standstill. There were no sound in my world. Instead my mind was blank.
After several hours, I suppose, I switched on the light and crawled to a body-length mirror hung on the wall. I looked totally haggard. My hair was disheveled. Light reflected off the layer of water on my face. My eyes were puffy red. I looked like a lunatic. I did not dare to think of what happened a few hours ago, for fear tears would run down again. I had an avoidant personality disorder. Whenever something bad or something that seems to be on the verge of deteriorating happens, I would take the easy way out- forget it ever happen.
After minutes, I heard a soft tap on my door. I heard my sister’s voice. She was asking gently for me to open the door. I was hesitant. She said I should come out and talk it over nicely with my mother, perhaps they could help resolve my problem. Instead I told her in a weak voice to leave me alone. I could not even face myself, so how could I even face them?
After a long time, I finally dared to open the door. I was drained of energy then, so weak even a breeze sent shivers down my spine. I dared not see my parents or my sister. I just silently hoped no one would notice my presence. I sauntered to the toilet and bolted myself inside. After I checked myself in the mirror and was assured I did not look like Rudolph the reindeer, did I dare venture out.
I saw my mother sitting quietly in the living room, staring into space. Her face had softened and aged as compared to a few hours before. I was apologetic for my behavior but the word “I’m sorry” never made it out of my mouth. None of us breathed another word about my episode. It was like it never ever happened. However, I knew that deep inside our hearts, that would forever be a scar. That was the climax of our mother-daughter tension. That day was the day I was mortally hurt. That day shall forever be buried deep in my heart.

Its just me and you <3 .
11:24 AM

Thursday, October 23, 2003

Today we went to hcjc. Like almost the whole of nanyang was there! Anyway we got a very cute tour guide from choir, called keesing?! i dunno la. Anyway was very impressed by their huang chen performance. They really damn eloquent in chinese. HC is really a very cheena jc, not only huang chen, the people, the LEP talk. Talking of LEP, it seems very fun, except that they have 24 tang shi and song ci have to bei, 5 short stories, hong lou meng, xijun and a lot alot of wen yan wen etc etc... So much more than clit. Then the MC was like emphasizing for those who have taken clit, it's best to take LEP, if not very wasted. Wad lor... Makes me so.. grr... qikei. Anyway the LEP class seems realyl fun, got kbox outing, steamboat outing etc etc. Very united oh!

Then i went to look at the classrooms buildings etc. The classrooms very nice, like those cabins we seen aboard the cruise. The windows resemble those! The library damn nice. At least this is the best library out of the 3 jcs i went. Best facilities and environment. It is the kind of library i want to stay after school. Anyway something ehh... not so good is that they walk to chinese high canteen to eat if got time! anyway the school was very nice, very pretty, very nanyang-like. The cheers, the people, the cca makeup is almost like nanyang. It's good because only two years, like not much change.

Anyway for every jc i visited, i will take note of its cca and which ones i would choose, so i would have an idea of my life there. Today i mostly noted TAHAN, OAC, the some Scouts one and AIR RIFLE. Anyway finding Tahan was like a dream come true! Heehee, kuang zhang. Anyway cos one of my wishes is to go to Nepal and ba shan. And Tahan was like mountain trekking. i noe my mother for sure wont let me go mountain-climbing, like need all those gear wadeva very dangerous. This is much safer, but like huiru said, very expensive. But i really wanna go. This is trekking wad. Anyway the guy who was telling me abt tahan was very friendly, gave me a good impression.

OAC was singapore-based, all in singapore, tt''s why not so attractive, although they got rock-wall climbing etc. But heard waisan said her brother inside one, slack slack one then huiru also said so, so impression dropped. Anyway Scouts was about the same thing, plus marching which is eh... not good. Anyway badminton was not very good there lor. But cheng wei told me they need badminton players very badly. But hcjc badminton like goner like tt, dunno hear who say, it''s a recreational cca. mabbe as second cca? Anyway heard yuhui wanna go rj by badminton, really ar?! Shocked dao!

Anyway hcjc like already family to me, since all these years ny always cheering for them also. like customary liao. Then the environment so familiar people also. Then i really look forward to huang chen and zhong qiu celebrations. heard a hc senior say, if you come to huang chen...., like hc is huang chen. I mean ya la, duh, but den really like unique identity. Saw yingyue here also, dunno how she likes here?! I''m beginning to love hcjc liao!

Anyway after that, we went to orchard sakae sushi to celebrate kim''s bdae. With sheena around, the food was coming and going at once almost immediately. I also ate quite alot. Sigh. Sigh. SIGH. okay nvm. We were so damn full lor. Kim was like very paiseh to eat, liming very small appetite, den the others playing with xuan''s hp. Anyway later amanda and I went to toilet. Then on our way back we saw this cake shop. Technically speaking, not cake shop, some cafe, den we saw this smarties brownie. Then i asked Amanda wanna buy anot? Then cos both of us no money, i asked amanda to call weilin. But she never answered so we called xuan. Then xuan blur blur blurted out Amanda''s name. We initially dun wanna Kim noe one, but sigh... Anyway then Weilin came out, gave kim some excuse like she gonna buy bill or something to pass amanda her wallet.

Then i even suggests we take the long way, go up and go to another escalator to come down to tt floor to avoid kim seeing us. Anyway then we borrowed lighter and got a candle. Then halfway there, we lighted up the candle, and i brought the cake in. Then we purposely sang happy birthday song very very softly. Cos kim very embarrassed like whole restaurant looking at us. hAhaha. Anyway i think kim should be quite happy today?! hehhee. Sheena as usual had a big appetite, ate the most. keep asking me to order so many things. Sigh. If all the customers like tt, buffet restaurant will fold up! So full, so aiyo, cannot move liao. Fat ar!

Anyway last thing, who wants to go hc, tag leh, we see how many people going?!

Its just me and you <3 .
7:58 PM

Tuesday, October 21, 2003

This is such a good analysis. I must praise this person. All bingo! Except the ping an part, ya la, at first she very e xing, but at least she confessed!

主題：倩女幽魂之我見(前20集)
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看完<<倩>>劇前20集已經有10來天了,每天都在盼著後20集現身.說真的,目前除了TVB的<<皆大歡喜>>讓我有過這樣急切的等待心情,還真沒有哪個片子有這個魅力.簡單來說,<<倩女幽魂>>好看!

不愧是高成本大製作,特技,服裝都沒話說.今天我在這想說的,是對情節和演員的看法.

情節篇:感覺過於離奇了點,和傳統觀念裏的倩女幽魂相去甚遠,如果把各種法術看成是武功的話,感覺特別像再看老式的武俠小說.先出來一厲害的高手,沒打幾下,又出來一更厲害的頂尖高手.不多久又再出來一個更更厲害的......如此迴圈,喜歡熱鬧的人會大呼過癮,喜歡看情節的就會覺得有點拖遝.這一點,是利也是弊.不過單就我個人而言,我喜歡,最好一直出更厲害的,拖個一兩百集最過癮.看看人家宦豬哥哥,拖了N久,一樣有人看.

人物篇:相信大多數的人看法一樣.主角不出色,配角超出彩!陳曉東應該是一個挺帥氣的人.可是在<<倩>>劇裏,只能用一個字形容他的樣貌--醜!他的招牌之一的大眼睛,在帶上書生帽後,凸凸地,感覺像我一個患了嚴重甲亢的朋友,而且還一大一小的,鬍子茬也繞嘴半圈地鼓起來,難看死了.加上他的衣服也沒有什麼特色,演又演的傻傻的,真是讓人大失所望.相反的是聶遠.第一次看他的戲是<<上錯花轎嫁對郎>>,沒細看,就瞄了幾集,他給我的印象是不怎麼帥氣,不過挺陽光的.誰知到了<<倩>>劇,他一改嘻嘻哈哈的形象,成了酷哥.加上他的幾套扮酷的服裝,加上他容易惹人喜愛的劇中角色特性,他給人的感覺是帥到掉渣~~~~~!!如果沒有張國榮和王祖賢的前作,我光看這部<<倩>>劇,我一定會認為他演的七夜才是主角.至於大S,給人的感覺是古裝杉菜,也許因為流星花園留下的印象太深了吧.既然是先入為主地覺得是古裝杉菜了,也就覺得她演的小倩還能接受了,只是沒什麼突破.萱宣可就棒了,細說的話可是數不過來.就總結一下說吧,非常好.吳京的流雲也不錯,不過比起紅葉和七夜的角色和表現來,還是差了那麼一點點.這個是和劇情安排有關,實際吳京的表現已經不錯了.在這裏我要得罪一部分人說一句心裏話了.我討厭李連杰,同是功夫明星,他老愛擺一副臭臉,自以為酷,其實我看了想吐.我寧願看看成龍,看看吳京,看看其他功夫明星,打死不看李連杰!!!
恬妞可神奇了!!都什麼年紀的人了,演這個片子一點也看不出她老了.看看她的前夫萬梓良,前段時間出現一次,都長成什麼德性了,唉,老萬真是後悔哦!喜歡恬妞不光是她的外表,還有她演的角色的感性,表演出色,很感人.
元華是老前輩了,演的好不在話下,不多說了.
其他還有很多角色,都演得很不錯.不一一說了.畢竟是個人看法,大家不如都去看看,說說自己得喜惡.

最後要特別評價得是前20集最可恨,最噁心,最無恥,最讓人難以忍受的精華人物!!!平安!!!!!!!!

這個死三八,一出來給我的感覺就很糟糕.我第一眼看到她我就說:"完了,這個肯定是這個戲裏專門討人厭的那個角色了."越往後演我越討厭她.首先,她長得怪怪的,說不出哪醜,就就是看了不舒服.其次,她做的每一件事都那麼討厭.自私,任性在她身上盡情表現出來.尤其當她裝龍叫不小心點燃了柴堆,卻推到小籃身上時,我恨不得這女人早點死,死一百次最好!!!據說後來她還是會說明真相,不過那是劇情的必然發展(紙包不住火),她還是那麼討厭!!!

好了,囉嗦了一大堆,不知要得罪多少人了,呵呵,只是隨便說說,各位東迷和平安迷不要見怪.希望大家都喜歡<<倩女幽魂>>這部難得一見的好臺灣片.

Its just me and you <3 .
7:57 PM

Bio pract today: went to school at 7am. And what's more i second shift one, madness rite, so early! But cos i taking the taxi uncle's cab, so must go so early. Then so extra, only sec 4 at flag-rising, no la audrey? there also. Bio pract was easier than prelims one. At least more bio-based and not wad physics type. Den the stupid diagram i redrew so many times, and more scary is the second part of first question, must draw the 3 adjacent seeds. Then i redrew the whole fruit den realise wrong. Then waste so much time, so scary, hafta redraw. Gosh.

Anyway den i saw the second question, den i Ahm choi, cos project work SMP we always dong plants and leaves. mei xiang dao one benefit of SMP is i can draw the outline of the line very quickly. Cos out of the 3 grp members i always sketched the leaves outline one. HAHA. Anyway i thought we are at an advantage, but mei xiang dao the questions so eh..... -_-' Dont UNDERSTAND ar! Anyway crap here crap there abit. Then got one question abt the surface area of the leaflets one, i dunno use which method better. Even thought of using SMP tt method, use graph paper sketch den weigh den compare with standard. But it wanted an ESTIMATE. If not i really would write tt down k! Thank goodness didn't. But i think also get that question wrong. Nvm la.

Then when i was writing for the last part of the question (using forceps push leaf down in hot water), suddenly my finger feel very pain. Then i saw i cut my finger with that stupid pen knife. I didn't even know leh! After so long, den pain. Either i'm ci duh or i've no feeling one. But small cut very painful, like paper cut like tt. Hai me now type also find pain! ARgH!!! Anyway i was rotting in the quarantineeing room, watching some zhang yimo's china movie, which is bannned in china. Very eh... not nice. Still say the acting very nice, i dont think so lor. So tempted to ask teacher whether can play the qnyh lingee just returned to me. At least much nicer.

Its just me and you <3 .
4:50 PM

Saturday, October 18, 2003

Today went to Victoria JC early in the day. Reach there before 10 and saw my ex primary school classmate ying ying. Haha, she bian mei liao. Not like she not mei before. But very shocked to see her, esp when we are on bus den i'm in front, she's at the last row. Den she see me tt time, still cute cute head slated to one side and smile. Haha. Anyway today met a lot of Rosyth classmates: felyna (kan dao bu yao zai kan), sarah (cute girl, change alot), and VALERIE! Haha. Opsie, cos i like abit dao Valerie just now. I didn't mean to. Cos i was bringing my classmates around, cos i was in Vj for like 5 hours! I already shou with that place liao, can chong dang guide. Den we were running short of time. I wanna talk to Valerie one leh. But nvm, hope she wont guai me. But she also dont see this blog, sigh, hope end-of-year gathering can see her! Hope will have gathering, tt is.

Anyway VJC was shuang tou tou! At first when i reach there, i was bitten by alot of mosquitoes outside, while waiting for zhi... Anyway there were these clowns outside, shouting and cheering, make me almost dunwan to go in. But their service very good, we reach the gates, got the goodie bags, den got one guide, Princilla?, came to ask us if we need a guide. So good! Better than TJ la. Then we walked around, Zhi seeing the music groups: Piano ensemble, CO, choir, band etc. Realise VJ's art groups all very li hai.

Den i looked at sports groups: Badminton, ODAC! I tried out the ODAC twice, once with Zhi (but she dont dare), once with huilin. The first time i tried, i was so early, i was the second sec 4 student to try out. There were two other students, both from Katong Convent. Then cos must be all 3 of us kinda afraid, so we started chatting. Then the instructor very surprised, thought 3 of us from same school. The instructor ears very good also, can catch our names. I tried the flying fox first. I initially wanna try out abseilling, but like no one try out. So nvm lor. So i ying zhe tuo pi go try. Haha so shuang. Although initially teng kong tt time very scary, but very shuang. Then with huilin, i tried abseilling. Although i tried before 5 years ago, this time very scary, partly because the student helper very fierce like tt. Then lean back tt time very scary. Ops, damn malu, dunwanna say. But abseilling really very sian. Nvm.

The second time i went, gotta register again, den i tell the person i register earlier, den she ask me find my name. Then the paper, i sorta never see before, then they very shocked cos when i found my name i was the fourth person. Then like so long later, i still come back. Haha. ODAC like very fun, although my senior say their PT siao one, run 8 rounds, 5 km! but they going nepal this year! So shuang. One of my xing wang is to go Nepal. if i can, i also wanna join some musical groups, but like no time leh. But ODAC like very scary, very physical, my mother sure wont allow.

Anyway then huilin and I were walking around in the concourse. Then suddenly, someone shouted my name VERY VERY VERY loudly. At first i cant see who called me! Huilin also ganna shocked dao. Then turned out is my senior Megan, she ganna blocked. She become very mei liao leh! HaHAHA, and she ended up being cricket captain! HAha, kan bu chu leh really, not suaning her, but really. Den she got 4 CCAs: cricket, earthwatch (whole class in earthwatch cos teacher force), Sea scouts (like very fun), and CDC also ganna pian one. Out of all 4 like all she ganna pian into one, but she got 80 hours of service can get full marks for CCA! Sea scouts sound very fun, can get own ship driving license if i never hear wrongly. Then got sailing, back-packing (I want!) etc. Then cricket she say very black, cos alot of Indians. She's racist la, along with her friend. But they two very cute. But i dont mind indians, cos i like mixing with other races. She also got alot of malay friends and eurasian friends, ehh...

Then VJ was giving out bah kwa (very delicious) and ice-cream! Hahah, so good. (paiseh kiki, but VJ service much nicer) Den their mass dance was soooo nice! They very zhen qi! What's more, they very enthu, not like ny doing chinese mass dance tt time, tun tun tu tu! And they more on one, just run out and dance, nobody care lose face anot. Then the dance steps very modern, very very zhen qi. Everyone like bond together. Their school spirit very good!

i must sound like very excited abt vj, which i am! Why? Cos Zhi wanna go there, cos my seniors very farnie there, cos badminton very good (but abit too good, i scare go in become no use also, i saw [isit call] Melissa. She first seed lor! Then if Kimberly from dunman also go, i no need go there liao) Then ODAC seems very fun, although the seniors like very fierce, like judging me like tt. Cos huilin and I compared to there like very small size. Sigh. Anyway tt's the setback from VJ. Then Seascouts and cricket sounds very fun. The CCA more attractive there leh! Then the senior there say from hougang to Vj no need very long and no jam very fast. Then she very cute still tell me 635 to 650, the bus 55 got double decker specially for VJ students.

Its just me and you <3 .
9:32 PM

Friday, October 17, 2003

Today went to Temasek JC. Spent one and a half hour travelling from school, so long!! Sian. Anyway when i reach there, my senior had already called me so many times. Then she immediately la me to the hall. Cos they having badminton there. So she told me to play badminton den like write on their form. Haha, so long never play liao, no la a few months only. Anyway at first played with her teammate, play soft soft. But then later kiki came and play with me. Because we more shou, so i play harder, heehee! Anyway their badminton team very zai, very li hai.

Anyway after that, i saw mr wee's ex acs baker guy. He asked me in english how mr wee was. But i gu gu never talk in english liao, so a bit stammering, den told him i haven't seen mr wee for very long time. haha he must be thinking i'm so lan. So malu-ing. But nvm, who cares what he thinks. Anyway after that saw huirou, zheng lan and xin yi. Then kiki went to la huirou to school hall also. Then huirou don't want to play leh. She a bit hesitant also, because she dont want to appeal to get into TJ. Then kiki say i very enthu, not good meh, cos i've already put down my bag to play against huirou. Long time no play ma.

I also abit wary cos TJ badminton really very good. Which is good and bad. Good because at least badminton is good, becos hcjc dont have. Bad because meaning very difficult to get in. And cos their training very very tough. And jc perhaps i'm not joining badminton, i wanna join TJ's rock climbing club cos they may go overseas to climb real rock. But i know my mother surely wont allow. So mao dun. But can take several ccas rite? Aiya dunno la.

TJ seems very good leh. Firstly, because a lot of my friends wanna go there: Huirou seems very interested, huilin also, zheng lan, xin yi also, but they scholars cannot anyhow change. Then alot of bedok south ex classmates also wanna go. Secondly alas, Zhi not very keen. If she keen, den i surely wanna go. Den perhaps can live at her house? Haha so near can walk to school everyday. But a bit ta jiao her family, wait auntie scold me. Thirdly, badminton very good. Fourthly, my sister went there. But big setback is my mother like not very keen on letting me go there. Cos i can go hcjc, y go tjc? I lived in bedok, now move to sengkang, now wanna study in bedok, siao ar, like my sis.

nvm, i shall decide later... after i go to ajc, vjc, hcjc, njc's open houses! I shant narrow my choices!

Its just me and you <3 .
10:23 PM

Thursday, October 16, 2003

Yesterday's last episode for Qian Nu! Sigh. Quite lame ending. After watching twice, finally understand something. [huiru,] Hongye is not suddenly like Liuyun, is she like liuyun all along. So stupid must watch twice then understand. Cos there's only one hongye. [Amanda] i noe i abit siao siao, abit TOO siao siao over QN, but nvm the blog will slowly and gradually get rid of all QN stuff. Anyway today receive Zhixiu's autograph paper [from me]. She lost the paper i gave to her as usual. Nvm, tt's beside the point. My point is she say something: think i know why your favourite character is hongye liao, b'cos your character is kind of very close to hers. REally?!?! I very happy! Cos i admire this kinda of character, but dunno it's my character. It's my character meh?

Its just me and you <3 .
4:48 PM

Wednesday, October 15, 2003

ANNOUNCEMENT!

Asking on behalf of my mother,
If anyone of u or ur parents or whoever wanna buy "Lee Kuan Yew at 80" aka "Lee Kuan Yew Ba Shi Ming Yan" pls contact me! Because if we order in bulk, for 10-50 copies, every book has less 10%. Meaning Hardcover S$11.50 or Paperback S$7.90 from the original price S$12.80 and S$8.80 respectively. For more than 50, which i think is impossible, is less 15$. Do your sums urself la. Please help me ask. My mother very frantic fan of LKY.

Its just me and you <3 .
6:32 PM

Monday, October 13, 2003

This post is in response to huiru, cos xuanxuan said wujing [liuyun] looks alot like leon lai [i think most people know who he is la]. She said this behind the scenes, not in qian nu k. Cos huiru dunno who's leon lai, so i shall post a pic for her! Heheee. Huiru, this is the pic i promise u, honestly, i dun think he looks like Leon Lai lor. only a bit abit

This is Leon Lai,

This is Wu jing,

Its just me and you <3 .
5:38 PM

Sunday, October 12, 2003

I surfed the net and came across these fabulous pix! These are dedicated for Qian Nu You Hun fans, only a few people la, so those aint, paiseh la... bEar with me!

This is the pic from the very last episode. Liuyun's hair is so eh.... neat.

Please forgive me, this is related to some rumours regarding both of them, but they only very very close friends. And IT ISNT ME WHO CIRCLE HIM!

Recognise this guy at the bottom? Gallen Leung Jia Liang

The guy on the left is forever in the limelight! Yi-ge ma! mei ban fa

Love triangle? No one way street!

This Xuan xuan for your info is u cant see. See how feng they can get!

Her post abit resembles the dog hor?! OPs... SORRY!

Alot of people birthday! SAnniang [the accident prone woman] on the top, lanmo [mo gong's no. one beauty] on the bottom

They must have bought from the same cake shop. Yi mo yi yang de!

Its just me and you <3 .
6:36 PM

Friday, October 10, 2003

Just now, I realise something very scary and at the same time fascinating. I don't know, cant recall, if i even said on my blog i always had this weird thing with dreams. Sometimes i will dream of something which i will encountered exactly in my true life. My dream [very very long time ago, i almost forgot until today] : A blue dragon will just suddenly fly up and about. Then suddenly she "flog" down and land on the platform beside Liuyun, making a very loud "pop" sound. Then Tianxin's big big face will appear on the scene and say something. And then suddenly the scene will change to energy appearing! End of dream.

Today i was rewatching the tape i recording Lanmo's resurrection of Liuyun. It was exactly the same scene. When i realised it was so familiar, i immediately pressed "stop" and then ENERGY pop up, exactly like in my dream. So damn scary. That time when i first had that dream, i was abit mo ming qi miao. Why would i even have a dream like tt? A dragon and ENERGY, like no link wadsoever lor. So qi guai4. Then today came true leh.

This isn't the first time liao lor. I dreamt walking with Dani up the stairs of AMK MRT, when we never ever went there together before, so cannot be dreaming of past events. I dreamt of being in a school bus, at the exact same position, with Charlotte they all. Sometimes, walking on the streets, i see people like very familiar, i don't know whether is it becos i dreamt of them before, or i actually meet them before. I think i gonna become hallucinating liao. ARGhhhhh!!!!

Its just me and you <3 .
8:35 PM

9/10/2003

Today during bio lesson, mr tan WAS supposed to be teaching some old topics again, but he deviated and talked abt his poly days and his overseas University days. He actually studied in Singapore Poly leh! kan bu chu lai. And somemore he is 9 pointer lor, still choose to go SP. But he got 19 for prelims, so ehhh.... very lihai la. Den he was asking wad professions he should invite for the career seminar, den Amanda asked me "you want forensic scientist?" den she shouted out "Forensic scientist" shock dao me. aiyo, den derek tan must have seen us mei lai yan qu, den ask me dierctly if what type do i wan to be, the fa yi or the lab technican type. Of course i prefer the latter.

Anyway after school today, a group of us, Sharleen, Xiuxia, yiling, huiru, ah ma, me went to find him. Then cos we were loitering outside nobody wanna call him, so i walked over to phone. Then mrs wong picked it up, den she told me they already reached him liao, den said something "duo1..." den cut short liao. Must be scolding me "duo ci yi ju" hahahah. Bleah. Den derek tan told us to go Career guidance corner, i dun even noe when. Today i finally know it's in the library first floor. Then no one dared to sit beside him of course. Fervin joined us. Haha. Then we like conducting class like tt, guai guai sit before him.

Then Sharleen started asking him abt his Australian days, when he ken bread bla bla. Realise he very yong gong, and li hai cos he saved up $9000 in about 5 years? Started working in sec 2, [i sec 4 liao never even start thinking abt it] den work every holiday. Army days also can earn money, we cant la, of course, den can save up to $9000 leh. So zai. Anyway he went poly so si si also must go overseas. He got a place in NUS, but didnt go lor cos only can go BASIC wad wad wad. That guy damn calculative, cos NUS education abt the same as overseas with the bond-free scholarship, calculative like fervin, tell u later. Cos fervin, as a foreigner, very concerned abt fees, abt overseas studies, den she already calculated in terms of sing dollars, in terms of malaysia ringgit. Shock all of us there, cos she plan sooooo far liao. Was like saying out all her calculations lor.

Anyway till today den realise he actually really very lihai, gua mu xiang kan. From poly to overseas university, den finish bachelor, den top in honours class, was requested by his "boss" to stay cos he SOOO good. He was offered free education for PhD? i think la, but he turned it down, cos he wants support from his family. Kan bu chu so li hai lor. Anyway mid-way someone asked abt the choice of courses in JC, den he said something like "you notice, Chem and Bio always come together?" Then yiling, sharleen started laughing, i dunno becos of wad, the rest of us didnt notice anything. Until Mr tan mumbled "Like ms lee and mr tan right?" to himself. If he hadnt said, i won't have thought so lor. So is who xiang wai wai.

Anyway i asked him about if i wanna be forensic scientist, how? Den he said, in singapore, there aint such course, but if i wan, can take micro-bio, molecular biology, chemical analysis, or something like tt, anythin except medicine for forensic scicentist. For forensic pathologist, must take 4 years medicine, den take another course for dunno how many years. Siao ar, den by the time i finished studying, den i will be like 26/27, so old liao!! Lao wu po.

Or he said go study overseas, should take less than 5 years. That's so much faster. At least can cut by half. I wanna go one, i think, in USA, some farm where got yan jiu e decaying process one. OKay i wont gross u all out. But heard tt place very good. But USA very far leh, den my mother like strongly objecting. Sigh. And somemore no money lor, if i cant get scholarship or i blow my scholarship [tt is if i can get, den die liao lor] Dun wanna add burden to my family leh. Sigh. Den derek tan ask who wanna go overseas study, 4 of us put up our hands, den when asked where we wanna go, yiling and I wanna go USA. Then he say if want, must decide quickly lor, cos can get into their grade 11 now, den straight away proceed to university. So fast?!! Siao ar, i not prepared mentally or financially lor.

Sigh we finished talking around 5 plus. So late liao. Then he gave us freebies, books and CDS hahaha, free gifts so surprisingly. Like salesman like tt. But this talk like so serious, make me really plan for future lor. But it's becoming more and more bleak. How?! like i was considering going poly, cos science stream education there really much better. Hands-on, if i wanna do science then going there will be better. But parents' expectation, school's expectation, society de pian jian. Somemore poly students cant take medicine. :P Like tt, if i wanna become pathologist, den bao tang liao. Sigh. Help me!

Its just me and you <3 .
6:38 PM

Tuesday, October 07, 2003

I need you people's opinion k. I asked Amanda this before. I don't want to sound subjective or bad mouth my friend, but i really need to know whether what i am doing is correct anot? Sorry if you know the person and i sound like bad-mouthing him.

If your friend kept asking you for favors to help do his homework, to fax him answers for your school's test papers, your notes, would you still help him? Initially i did help along. But i never did his homework for him, although he kept pestering. He once asked me to do zuo wen for him, cos my chinese is good [like real] I cant ren tong with his belief that friends can help in doing his homework. Somehow i got this idea that this was nothing to him, it's alright to do this.

But somehow i cant accept this kind of behavior, and absolutely wont do this for him. he said his friends and him always do this. His girl friends also helped him. What the... crap lor. Like i'm his jie, not his girl friends. Like i MUST listen to him meh, be xiao nü ren [no offense to his girl friends] and helped him do?! Siao. I cant stand people who asked too much, esp cos i myself very independent, dont like mafan people. I assume he would respect my independence and my thinking lor. But too bad, he dont. He takes it for granted that i helped him a few times and he de chun jing ci.

I sent him my bio notes for prac, in which i drew the specimens. I faxed him around 5 or 6 pages. He asked me for answers to several papers, sometimes, our school's specimen papers, sometimes other schools' answers, like RI etc. I would help him la. But perhaps because he told me of his habit of asking for help from people, tt's y everytime i give him help, i'm abit reluctant. I also rejected him several times when he asked me to do compo, essay for him. -_-

Anyway today he asked me for answers for our school's SS papers and Hist papers. I told him, we dont have the answer key, but got descriptors and bits and pieces of answers. THen i said dont be lan, go do yourself. Then he said Your head, i finding for whole class one. I don't know if it is for the whole class cos the teacher request or they want it themselves? So i asked y their teacher never give them? Then he say cos NYGH didnt give them wad! What lor... so grr.... I mean nygh teachers have to come up with their own answers when other schools didnt give their answers lor. Our teachers have to pia until late late, and they expect us to just copy and give them our answers ar?! He sounds as though we must give them the answer key like we owe them lor.

Today i had clit lesson until 5pm plus lor. The whole day so many long lessons, so damn bombarding lor. Got this headache again. Then he come and argue with me again. So i sorta tell him to stop it cos i dont want to argue cos of headache. Then he said nvm cos i always like tt one. What lor!? Cos his attitude like so ba dao, den i like tt. I dont owe him anything rite, i'm not his slave or pet! Waulau. Nvm. But can anyone tell me whether i'm being alittle too harsh or he deserves me doing this to him. i really wanna tell him off straight in the face, but i know if like tt, surely friendship no more. But if i really have to do that, i will surely do that. Must i scold him?

Its just me and you <3 .
8:15 PM

Monday, October 06, 2003

Today while i was on my way home, i had a very very hilarious and stupid encounter. On the bus, there are two students, i think, judging from their voices, to be around primary 5 or 6. Initially i thought they were girls, but you know the guys' voices at that age very high-pitched, so maybe i'm mistaken. I overheard their conversation, didnt mean to eavesdrop, but cos they are talking so loudly. Somemore directly behind me, what you expect me to do? Shut my ears?

Anyway, at first they were talking about their parents, how one isnt close to her parents, how he likes his father. Then that guy asked the girl about her class etc. he asked like how well she is to her friends, she said her friends are mostly guys, den the boy was like abit sad, cos his voice dropped down an octave. Then he also asked something like,"Do you dare to do a dare, like put your arm over another person" den the girl replied like "If the person gives me $10." Then he asked her if she got crushed anyone in her class. The girl said yes, of course. Then she elaborated, saying out aloud one guy's name she crushed long long time ago. Then there is another who migrate to America. So there was a pause, quite long one, then the boy said,"You must be heartbroken!" [he sounds quite sad] Then the girl was like "NOOoooooo!"

Hahaha. ANyway then that guy was like suddenly saying,"I want to ask you something, but i'm scared you will get angry and hit me." Then the girl said No No. The boy still refused to say. Then after alot of push here push there. He said,"I'm very scared leh. very nervous also, there are eh... butterflies fluttering my ... eh... stomach. Xiao lu luan zhuang. Aiya you should know what i'm talking about right?" Girl: I dunno leh. Boy: Aiya you should know la, no need i say out. Girl: I think i'm a baici i dont understnad leh. Boy: Aiya you really dunno ar? [pause] [pause]

Then i was sitting infront of them, like so gan jiong. I wanted to turn around and just burst at them. Wanna scold the girl why so... eh... ben. Scold the guy why so popo mama. Cant stand it.

Boy: Aiya later i tell you at the busstop la. Here alot of people. Then i was thinking did he realise i was listening to their conversation? Ops. So later, when they finally alighted, i was sitting on the upper deck of the bus. So i secretly miao them out of the corner of the eye. The boy is really a boy, cos i cant judge from the voice. Then both of them sit there and talk. Haha. Too bad i cant hear the last part. What do you think the boy wants to say leh?

Its just me and you <3 .
8:05 PM

5/10/2003

Today I went out with Zhi after piano to buy photo album. Finally found a purple colour one in Popular. VEry cute~finally got one xin yi one. Today she very unexpected, cos she actually asked me to go play leh. For once, she wants to play instead of studying. Hahahaa, must be i influence her (bad influence of course).

We decided suddenly to go watch Infernal Affairs II. But we dont have any newspaper on hand, so we cant know the times. So i called my sister den realise there is one showing at 2 which is ten minutes from then. And we were in Bedok, going to Tampines to watch. How to pia? So we half run half walk to MRT and quickly rush there. BUt we realised rush is reductant cos we still sat in the cinema for another 5 minutes watching the advertisements.

The show was eh... how to say... not exciting enough. Hahaha. It's much much lan-er than Infernal Affairs I cos first Liang Chao Wei and Andy Lau not acting in it. Second, the plot abit expected, cos both characters wont die anyway. Got one part the car exploded was kinda expected also. Maybe cause i overheard xuan saying abt the car crash outside the airport, so abit not as scary. But still the car crash part was very very surprising.

Okay wad did the show manage to achieve? Shocked me? Yes. Gross me out? Yes. Make me wanna sleep? Yes. Zhi was sleeping most of the time, i had to wake her up. There are alot of scenes about how gross the people died. The bloody scenes were shown. THey make it so li suo dang ran, like death means nothing, you watch liao, will become mamu. But cos we are seated very near the speakers, the gunshots, the crashes sounds are very loud, make me jump out of my skin.

But i went to watch it because i watched the zhi zuo te ji, cos i heard one thing: Wu Zhen Yu told Yu Wen Le, you dont have to cry alot, you just have to have one teardrop and flick your hand like this [action] den the audience will know you are bei ai. I went to see that scene actually. Den i realise how good his acting is. Very han xu, very eh.... It's like he's not acting at all. Cos he himself seem to be like tt also, ma mu ma mu one. Hahaha. Like insulting him, paiseh. But out of all the actors, his acting damn zai. TOo bad very little people like his acting. :P After i watched the movie, i was dazed like after i watched INfernal Affairs. same effect, same impact. But this movie, i went home and slept for 3 hours, cos too boring.

Zhi made me this golden star from clay. VEry nice, yue kan yue nice. Heehee very scare break it, cos i always so cho loh. Got one friendship bracelet although not she make one, but still very very nice, like made by CHina minority grps type. When will i even learn to make one like tt? Never, i guess.

Its just me and you <3 .
7:51 PM

Saturday, October 04, 2003

Mood: Lan tou le

Just had a big fight with my mom. Sagittarius hated to be restricted. And that's exactly what's she's doing. She used very yan zhong words lor. Insulting me and my fren. What crap! She said "So long no meet liao, dunno what may happen," like hinting what e xing bad things will happen like tt. Just because yingyue cant go, so wad, not like i cant take care of myself. My fren not like bad people or wad?!

Crap lor, everytime also must take care of her feeling, den i reject this outing again. Second time, third time liao lor. She even said "Why must go meet your friends? Ex-primary, wait secondary, later jc and university?!" What.. grr.... crap! Friends of course are increasing as the years go by. Mei dao li number decreases one wad. Cant i meet up with them? Just becos she dont meet up with her old friends, dun meet i cant right? Gao dao wo xing qing damn cha. Ben lai hao hao de.

i gonna fa shi i not gonna cry again becos of her. I once did this before and i did succeed for almost a year. That year was miserable. I'm sad to say, I gonna do this again. Ren shen zhen de bu neng you yi han ma? I just have one more yi han again.

Its just me and you <3 .
9:29 PM

Mood Forcast: Bad

Fedup! Today my mom hear that yingyue not going for the ex-primary reunion, den she don't let me go. Wad lor. She always da1 ying4 liao, den fan hui, still say she never did promise me that i can go. This is not the first time lor. Qian Nu VCD that time she also like tt. Sigh. Sigh, she forever like that, i also cannot do much. So always take on my tactic, han hu qi ci den blur blur like tt, den can go liao.

I seriously dont think it's very guo fen to go to the reunion lor. She only heard there's guys there, den she overreact liao. Not like i purposely go there zao nan ren like tt. I not so despo lor, tolong, but i cant tell her straight like tt rite. Seriously dunno how to communicate with her. She also ask whether i know them well anot, i think alright wad, but she thinks otherwise.

So i say wanna ask Zhi go along. I really think she will be out of place there also, like me, tt's y at first dont wanna ask her. But sigh shé's last resort. But last resort also cant go. Sigh. The other previous reunions i also reject cos i know she always hu si luan xiang. But liang bian dou bu tao hao, very cham one leh. Nvm, i shall do according to Sagittarius character, do as the heart wishes. Bleah. *sorry for so many han yu ping ying, cos i'm fedup with the chinese characters not showing up liao.

Its just me and you <3 .
8:40 PM

Friday, October 03, 2003

Today's feeling kind of weird. Unexplainable, indecipherable. Anyway i'm trying to aim for a2 for english so i gonna write in perfect english, i hope.

Today's the last day of taking back of scripts. It's better than i expected, actually. Initially i thought the whole level may have done relatively bad, tt's y the teachers were giving us those negative feedbacks. But it turned out that we did relatively okay. Not THAT bad anyway. Many of my classmates were very consoled by today's marks cos it sorta saved them. Hehee :D

I'm happy with my results of course, but den whenever i hear them talking about L1R5, i'm kinda saddened. It wasnt like i aint satisfied with my score. i'm delighted, truthfully speaking, but whenever we talked about it, i will be reminded of my lan lan da bu ke yi zai lan de chinese. Sigh, like so yi han. Although i kept saying ren shen cannot have yi han, but den jiu let me haf this yi han for some time. After that, perhaps i xiang kai liao, wont have yi han again. But this, no, these, blemish so OUTSTANDING. two 3s among ... sigh.

Anyway today receive alot of autographs back. They very lihai one day write finish liao, but two pieces only. Sometimes i think izzit enough anot? Nvm la, but when i see wad they write, actually like tt is sufficient liao. Reading what they write makes me suddenly like è§‰ æ‚Ÿ ! Cos some of them normally dont say much, but den what they tell me shocked me oh. Huiling very cute say i very ä¹� è§‚ æ´¾ , can æ„Ÿ æŸ“ åˆ« äºº ï¼Œ cos i like always smiling. Is it? I dunno leh. Got one time interview with Wang Laosi, she also say,'' çœ‹ ä¸� å‡º æ�¥ ï¼Œ ä½ å¥½ åƒ� æ•´ å¤© éƒ½ åœ¨ ç¬‘!" I very shocked dao. Can anyone tell me whether it's true? be frank k.

Then i realise alot of people write in chinese. Then got alot of quotes very meaningful and sweet. Those you expect to write meaningful quotes all got write. Those who always lame lame one, hahahaha, also crap crap. Hahaha, different kind of styles, but all very shuang to read. Heehee. Mabbe it''s good to collect autographs before Os. Motivation ma. Also makes me reminisce the two years. Eh... Hate for it to end, hope we still get together after Os. Still get after after years later. Or same jc!

Its just me and you <3 .
4:31 PM

Thursday, October 02, 2003

i cant believe i got A1 for combined humans. That was the first time in my whole life. But yi xiang dao chinese, aiya nvm. i already 知足 liao. I dun wanna make anyone reading this to be sad k. Everyone has different expectations. So even though when others cry although they got very high marks, tt's becos different viewpoints, different opinions. Sometimes we aint in their shoes, we wont understand wad stress they MAY have.

Anyway, alot of people in my class upset over results. I know i'm in no position to say anything but everyone 想开点。 I saw alot of people in tears, i saw alot of people cry, den i was thinking. What is this crap prelims doing? What good does it serve? Is it very shuang that it makes people cry? I'm treating the whole damn papers as one stupid individual. I cannot see people cry. They cry, makes me very cham, also wanna cry. But nvm, girls have the license to cry. Cry it all out.

Today took back clit. Surprisingly i did well, but i also want others to do well also la. When i was going home, i asked xx how she fared. Then she said still the same, cant get more points to jump grade, den she was like 眼睛含泪。So i dun dare ask anymore. I very scared i make people cry again. This period very 危险， but also sorta bonded alot of my classmates together. We console one another. We helped to search for points for them to jump grades. We did wadeva to help. hopefully wad we did has some good. Sigh. Why must prelims be so disheartening? 没人性 !

Its just me and you <3 .
7:33 PM

30/9/2003 Midnight

Tonight, i suddenly 觉得很幸福。 Cos i just received Zhi's email. She's very stressed about prelims, about her results. I very scared for her what happened in p6 may happen again. BUt of course i hope it would never happen again. i can only say, It's all in the mind. Dont think too much, den will be okay liao. So i posted on her blog saying "天塌下来有我扛"‚ Actually i didnt really know wad to do to help, dunno if i can help her like this. Hopefully. She replied me saying i said that to her before PSLE also. I very 感动 cos she can remember oh. I cant remember la. Heehee. Suddenly felt that i aint alone, 不是孤军作战。 Everyone seems to be behind me.

Then mingwei, my very very ex ex classmate cum shoulder-partner msg me and asked me to go to our class reunion. I left the class during primary 3 den went to rosyth. Sometimes really regret, miss all my classmates but nvm already done. 人生不能有遗憾。 Everyone remember oh. Esp now, no matter what happen, no matter how u fare in prelims, dont regret. Dont look back. 伤心后，要重新站起来，再重新奋斗。 Forsake the past den u can progress k!

Anyway i very shocked to hear he got read my blog one. :P abit paiseh, so 疯 about << 倩女 >> Anyway he said he missed me after i 不辞而别 in primary three. But everyone please dont 想歪歪 , he is a very 好人, very easily sadden. So if anyone else is to leave, he would also feel the same way. Thanks. Make my day oh. 希望 everyone also have such good friends behind them k. maybe you dont think you have anyone supporting you. Look more carefully and closely around you. Perhaps the person has always been there for you, but u didnt realise it. perhaps the person only didnt express it out only. Perhaps you should start the cycle first. No matter what no matter when, there will always be a 知己 around u.

Its just me and you <3 .
7:06 PM

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